She knows me before I know her
She spoke to before I spoke to her
She played with me before I play with her
She taught me lot before I taught life to her
She carried me physically though I not once carried her
She is the only women who hugged me with more love and
joy
She is the only women who scold me lot too
She is the only women who proud of me being in her life
no matter how I am
She is the women I hugged her just by breaking my
thought of man
She is the only women in my life whom I offered my poem
at her death bed
At that time also I know she is leaving me but she does
not know I will not come with her
This day , since I left her in 95 , not a single year
she missed to call at 6 am just to convey her blessings, that too only in her final days mobile technology started reaching .
Now I am at highest place of the world , hope at her
heart too
But always besides her lotus feet
As a child I called her as AMMA
As a man my culture taught me to call as AMMA
I don’t know how many of her dreams fulfilled
But I am certainly fulfilled one of her dream , by
living joyfully and in benevolence
Only her moment of motherhood brought me all this in my
life , which I called as experience , exposure , god and Guru
Without her my life has not fulfilled in anything
I am not overwhelming in love but when I see I
have not given back anything to her , I am in tears
She is half of my father , so in a way I remember him
also through her
Don’t know whether I will have one more birthday to
write one more saying about them , but as long as I have this kind of day in my
life , I will remember her and him , not because they become my parents but I have
atleast two people to share my gratitude beyond my GURU
I could feel your birthday wishes not just in your
presence but in your absence too.
Thank you maa to give me this day in my life .
Bow down to you.
Swami sushantha
01-05-2014 (stepping in 45th birthday)
