Blessed with their presence - days in parmarth

For the past one month I am little busy and bit disappointed too. It started with my birthday on may 1^st. the only disappointment is my plan of visit to Kedarnath not happened as I expected. I will write these things latter. Because now I need to share about wonderful people that I met.

Since oct 26^th  2013, my first visit to parmarth nikethan rishikesh , the connection still goes on. Even that first visit is given by Kedarnath. The inner push , to present at some point or with some one , so that atleast something can be taken forward from the life that stuck at 16 and 17^th june flood.

The same made me to create the “SAVE KEDAR” document (posted in blog too) which I presented to Pujjya swami chidanandha maharaj , the head of parmarth niketan. That acknowledged by his blessings taken me to the event where then chief minister shri vijay baghuguna’s and former BJP CM both attended in the same ashram at rishikesh in jan 2014.

Last week suddenly I got a msg from nandhini of project hope office that swamiji wants to meet me. Also she mentioned about a katha program that is organized by parmarth which will happen from 15^th to 22^nd june 2014. Here at every place few people organized this bhagavath katha program for the first anniversary of last year flood victims.

This time as soon as I landed in rishikesh , one sanyasi , who is from kerala , now on yatra met me in the road just in few minutes. Its wonderful time I spent with him , by sharing few things about grace of guru for some time. By the time I reach parmarth its almost night 8 pm. The ganga arathi was going on. So I did not disturbed nandhini.

I neither visited reception because of I don’t know the answer for the questions such as how long I need to stay, what purpose of meeting etc etc. when I kept luggage’s in reception the one who was there told me directly go to swamiji’s dharshan .

For me , a small reluctant because of continous travel for 10 hrs. but still I obeyed him. It is exactly coincindence that swamiji also came back from arathi by the time I reach the gate. After the blessing and customery words he asked me to come in.

Swamiji is very fast in communication. for the whole day lot of people waiting for his dharshan , even if it is just for 2 min. for many many it is such unique and one time life experience to meet somebody like this , because of coming from rural and far away india.

that too when people like sadhguru is so simple and able to acccesable by common man , they feel blessed beyond life and death. i remember how sadhguru gives importance of that moment , in volunteers meets, especially in samyama. 

here in a place like rishikesh , where daily tourist comes in huge numbers for all 365 days , especially people like swamiji , can touch the people and their life just by sitting in one place. i too have experienced few of such wonderful people. here in parmarth nikethan , evening ganga arathi is very very famous. it attract lot of crowd and almost all celebrities and prominent people.

swami utilising this opportunity to spread awareness about cleaning the ganga and planting trees. daily atleast handfull of dignitries getting some plant in presence of public by committing to nurture it to grow. it is very overwhelming experience for many. And simple people from rural india , especially when they undertake a sankalpa like this for tree plantation or not to pollute ganga , during their life time theerth yatra , it will be followed beyond generations of that family. for sure it has impact in people's life. thats the best part of the tools of devotion.

so all these demands made him to handle minimum a dozen of people all the time. if he can give just 1 min per person even that is not enough to fulfill the daily demand. in between he has to manage celebrities, requests, projects, various proposals etc etc. And above all the people who comes always talks about general ways. nothing in particular with solutions. if u ask them ok fine what u can do for this , many of them will become silent. 

every one wants something has to do for nation and society only by others. many not willing to come forward with committment , or to take up something. so he can't give more than 2 minute to a person unless otherwise the person is sharp, talking result oriented, willing to take some responsibility and work to make it happen.

but still For a person who worked with sadhguru....... , before i go into this let me tell you one thing , it is not right to compare anyone with anyone. every one is unique in their own way. every one is reached their height and people in their own way.

i am seeing them as they are. here i want to compare myself to the demands of working with two different personalities in the same platform. in small level it happened for me and for every one in isha too, when they work with different swami's and maa's. though each one works for same purpose and in same system , the way of working and way of approach will be different from each other.

so in this context it is quite opposite situation for me in terms of demand. it will be is really challenge. needs lot of patience and aware for not to judge or compare any of the thing. Not just for me but anyone it is same. Because it is two total contra ways of working. 

When I was sitting in sathsang , somehow his way of work reminded the character of the movie , nanbargal (tamil version of 3 idiots) sathyaraj, teaching two different subjects by two hands at the same time. the multi task handling character it will emphasise. to seek complete attention of such one is wonderful experience.

Because he handles the works in such fast , that in such a way not even single moment getting waste. Also I able to observe and learn many things . it was great experience to be work with such people. The other person who amazed me is DR Rachna.

I met her in jan 2014 for the first time. She also learned the shambavi maha mudra. Her two childrens also filled with joy and lived in the moment. She is Delhi university professor and her husband is an IAS cadre.

me with her son Aarsh , Dr  Rachna (blue saree) and her daughter shreyanshi is back to us - in ganga arathi at parmarth niketan

Swamiji just told,  I need to talk about kedar, we will meet tomorrow morning . 

But the communication gap is existed everywhere. it is because the volunteers not able to run with time and his fast due to many things has to be done in same time. they also have to prepare things for such meetings , requirements of guests , etc etc apart from their department works. Almost after starting the meeting with few people , nandhini has sent the msg for me , in searching and calling for the meeting.

On the other hand I expected this kind and always on the toe since the morning. Last time itself I observed how each one of them working. The swamiji’s speed is uncomparable but for others I noticed as by running in that speed many things they missing. They could not able to catch the moment.

By the time I reached swamiji’s kutir , almost a dozen people going thru the process which includes prominent people like shri. Unniyal ji from uttarakhand planning commission and Dr rachna , the only known face to me.

After the meeting , shri unniyal ji has presented a PPT , a solution to uttarakhand problem of roads and land slides. His wonderful presentation discussed lot about creating tunnel based transport , which reduces the distance between all the prominent places significantly.

It is quite interesting subject and if it is presented properly and taken by people in administration , beyond the politics , definitely such innovative ideas will give better solutions for common people and pilgrims. There are few things have to be worked out in that aspect. By the time it got end it become 2 pm.

So my meeting was postponed to night after arathi. Based on my experience with pujjya swamiji and observation of his way of doing things I worked out myself about new kedarpuri , thru a power point presentation. Though he has not said anything like that , I thought I must do this homework , only then I can encounter the moment incase if anything he asks.

If it is for sadhguru , I could have submit it thru the channel and I will get the response depending upon what is presented. Mostly I get blessings note and necessary instructions will go to relevant department or people , who has to handle those aspect and we can relay on the result unless and otherwise if practical issues pops up .

Generally all the second level application we may not require to go to him. Because it is system based approach. Only for policy or for something innovative mechanism and cost factor we need to reach higher hierarchy. But here this system is function based on person based. may be i went for the project related , i think the department functions like that.

Every single thing going thru and depending on just one person , who is pujjya swamiji himself. There is no second line people so that we can work out all the thing or we can do follow up the progress of the project. swamini adityanandha takes care of documentation aspects. but both she and nandhini are very busy in such level , that they could not able to remember what they got , where they storing. i don't know whether their working style is like that or system is like that. one thing is very clear to me , for swamiji's speed and demand of expectations from the public , the supply is not sufficient.

And daily when u initiate so many things , if ur second line people not walked with same speed , everything will folded back there itself. For the push you have approach the top again.

By observing all this , I don’t want to take any second chance to take up the matters . I must thank and gratitude my isha people and isha life to give me such diversify and depth experience in handling of things.  Because in isha , every one has their unique style of working so you have to adapt to each individual style of approach in short time , else you will end up in complaints. At the same time the system plays its role for back up and follow up , whenever individual limitations pops up.

In the night after arathi, suddenly swamiji turned up ,and told, “ yes now , tell “ . I wondered what to tell about new kedarpuri , that too straight away I am from arathi. Suddenly I landed in moment and told , nothing to tell swami , I prepared a PPT which I will present.

Immediately swamiji’s response was , I have seen the pictures last time itself, what is there to see again?

No swamiji , this is different , this is about points related to creating new kedarpuri .

Do you have any solution for that? Swamiji asked

Yes , I made it as power point presentation. I can bring now .

Ok , I will come to presentation room.

I ran back to my stay room , to bring the details.

Myself , nandhini, swamini adithyanandha and few others on toes in setting up the ppt .

Both nandhini and swamini does not know how to connect the laptop with screen. The person who did in the morning also tried but he could not succeed and left it as it is ,went out. i think he is also trainee in this aspect. the whole team of people not ready for all kinds of demands that swamiji may require at anytime , especially in dharshan time. so for every thing people need to run away to search for something or somebody.

We are failure in our effort of setting up monitor. none of them not know how to set up things to make for the presentation. Swamiji opened the door and as usual he did not waste single minute , oh its not ready ok I see u tomorrow.

I just recalled myself how if it would been isha. its well organised. volunteers will keep all options and needs and requirements . it just need very less time to set up things as soon as msg received. even otherwise if sometimes something not able to fix it Sadhguru would have been wait unless otherwise if we could not fix it and say we could not due to ..... this this reason. generally it wont happen at all.

Similarly every one tried to help each other and do something because we doing it for him only , we are living for him only incase if such emergency arrives at any moment.

I could not be stopped to recollect my memories.

But here I am just an invitee above all I too never did such thing in my life.

We shared some wonderful thoughts and ended the day.

The next day I am more alert that I don’t want to take single chance again so I am on back of them to ensure those things well in advance. Ofcourse with the help of some volunteer we set and ready for him to visit.

Swamini adityanandha has passed msg to swamiji , but left thinking that it is not for her to carry out her activity.

So when swamiji came , he want her presence too to take the notes so that next step is possible. So again he left by giving another 5 minutes.

I become too alert , if I struggle even for one second to present , if it is not impressive , the whole work will loose the possibility of reaching higher administration such as CM and PM .

it is more than my life now. Because as a individual , without any banner or organization I cant take it such heights as of now. But if swamiji is convinced he can take it up to such high desks , which has the possibility to restore the sacred place in best possible way.

I have no prayer or chanting within me. But within me it is like how I present to my beloved guru. Only difference is earlier I take my own time but now time is not in my hands , I have to win the time too.

Generally I am little bit tense especially if I present something to such high level people , other than sadhguru. The only thing is my exposure and little knowledge keep reminding myself.

So I kept my homework going within me as from where I should start how to go.

Atlast the moment came. Dr rachna also was there. Her presence gave lot of boost and coolness to me. It gave me a feeling that I am presenting to her only . i thought she can convince swamiji or she can give pause time to me by asking few questions.

She is very wonderful person filled with lot of exposure and devotion. She was sharing about many things about isha, sadhguru , swami ullasa etc. just before the presentation she spoke about starting of her shambavi practices.

Along with swamiji there is another crew also came . swamiji invited them also.

I kept the screen , set ready go kind. So just started from there.

Started first point of building 3 tier protection wall in the rivers and need of it . swamiji got interest he also joined with me to share his ideas to enrich the vision.

For the next less than 15 mins his focus not shifted anywhere. Very keenly observed and blessed with his inputs.

Now the plan is almost ready , I improved with line sketches of how it should be . by tomorrow it is ready to add in PPT .

Swamiji committed he will take it to governments.

I know it may not happen as it is I told. But for sure the points and facts will be taken into consideration and improved.

Though he wants to have some more discussion (don’t know abt what) I am just waiting for his time and blessing.

In the mean time yesterday , on ganga arathi , first time in my life I got opportunity to pay my prayers and arathi to her. Fortunately the day was blessed by few mahamandaleshwar’s and ganga dasara day (birth day of ganga)

Later in the night , Rachna’s children filled the wonderful moments with their presence and grace. It was wonderful experience to talk with her son. He started writing his thoughts and emotions on ganga.

By the end , rachna herself came with shining light got from shambavi. She took me and introduce many wonderful people who volunteer there.

Ramesh , the person who works in swamiji’s reception , a beautiful encounter keep happening with him everytime , silently and with smile.

Karmaveer touched my heart beyond the language barrier.

Nandhini and swamini adityanandha are unique and wonderful in their own ways.

The day’s of parmarth will continue …..

Because its his blessing and grace.

i am just very ordinary person , have my own limitations and mistakes , yet my days are not far away , the grace of guru leads me and filled with his blessings

The presence of such wonderful people and powerful absence of him is telling only this to me.

at last , today i got his free time for some moments. he is not as i seen in previous days. told few inputs. blessed me by handing over the responsibility to make it happen. he said he will be with me and support every need. so together we can make it happen.

so at last road map to kedarnath , starts unfolds

you too bless me , so we create such sacred thing in our life and world

Will pen it more . till then…….

need your support and blessings -for a girl to pay her college fees

Now it has been nearly 1 yr , no income for anyone in kedar valley. Yet beedi, gudka, liquor sales has not come down even in dev bhoomi.

That’s how generally the men’s life no matter where he is. On the other hand women’s life is not like that. She has to adjust many things for her children. She has to work and take care her children even if husband refused to go to job. This is not just in india . except in western countries this is the reality.

In kedar valley , so far I neither collected any funds for any organization nor I recommended any organization to support. I have always included all who come to help my people. I always said about good works done by them. so i left it to each one's choice as whom they want to donate.

even for me till now , though so many offers come from wonderful people to reach out my needs , i always turned it down. i have never asked anyone except to him , within me. still all my needs slowly fulfilled by his grace without single paise.

Since the disaster ,Nearly 8 months the former chief minister shri vijay baguguna’s rule is much pathetic than any disaster. Nothing has been done even to basic standard. just only in speech and speech.

Due to policy changes and adhoc management many NGO’s helplessly tied their hands and did little instead of what they could really do. many of the people and Ngo's feel as Enormous funds has been wasted. 

Today 4^th june 2014 , almost just one week for anniversary day , the Hindustan times reported about shifting of stones behind the Kedarnath temple . But its tooooooo late.

Don’t know what the forthcoming rainy season is going to give chance for us, which is barely just few weeks from now. On the other hand many of the Ngo’s also not delivered to their full potential due to various factors.

No one know how much fund come for each ngo (which initially called for donations) and how much they converted into field. None of the prefabricated house has been given to any victim so far. the freebie's given by NGO's made others who not got affected by flood , in greedy.

Inspite of all odd’s the womens and girls make the wheel running beautifully. They participating many employment schemes run by various organizations and Ngo’s. it is really positive side.

I too working with few wonderful people on creating a hospital in this area. I have dream to create a library too , both digital library and traditional one to plant the reading habit and few thoughts beyond the subject books.

Now one request I received for girl’s education. actually i pushed them to give request, but on seeing their dignity of not asking anyone but still going thru the hardest phase of life, i decided to support to whatever extent i can.

just one year ago these people are considered as the family of karna. but just one day made them as penniless . 

Anamica karnataki,(roll no 7) studying second year in Bachelor of Ayurvedic science at Uttaranchal ayurvedic college ,at dehradun, a course to become ayurveda doctor , resident of kedar valley need to pay her college fee of Rs.1,10,000 need to be pay by july

Her father is taken care of 20 families who are working under him. all these are past now. But the last year disaster made him penniless. there are lot of people like this.  When his condition itself like this I no need to tell about the families who working under him or others who just going for jobs in the season time.

It is she who I met first in 2012, she convinced few people and supported me to have schelter without any single paise because of her little english speaking and understanding skill.

though it is study for ayurveda doctor, in this part it has good value. And still we can't imagine a girl becoming ayurveda doctor inspite of hurdles she faces here on day today basis. 

Similarly monika , a 7^th class student in the village of kotma , which is an interior village in 15 km distance, who not even have a proper headband and just live with 2 sets of cloth. I happened to interact with her during my stay of 2 days.

There is another girl in same region waiting to stop the education (awaiting her +2 result) due to no money mostly in the edge of ending her education. But still her smile on face not ended.

People like swami dr thulasidass , brahmachari prashant dedicated their life by deciding to stay in this region from the organization , who are came from Ramakrishna mission ,and decided to live among us and for us.

We have initiated a tution centre for these students to teach maths and English. The near by inter school don’t have teacher for these subjects for the past 4 years.

Each one of you know how we talk about women’s education.

I can refer these people to big big names and organizations. But my experience with those stopping to do . Because they are not poor people like we see. but the life made them as poor. yet living with dignity by not asking.but still i could not able to think to stop the girl's education due to money. they will get the support by some way. the world is not depending on me. but i want to contribute my blessings to her atleast in little way.

in this valley the only college is at augusthiamuni which is nearly 25 to 30 km for all village. they need to travel min 2 hours to reach. by the time they return back they cant get vehicle for their village from guptakasi. so girls generally stops her education. boys some how make it a degree which is not even give the 12th standard knowledge and exposure that a boy gets in other sectors.

anything if you want to do its you only have to do. everybody /every organisation has its goals and agenda. since i don't even have an bank account or not working in any banner many times i just guide the people to relevant persons or organisations. 

But generally i can't get smiley faces because of various factors involved in it. so when we discuss these kind of incidents with few wonderful locals , when they insisted to start an organisation , which politely turned down (i know the depth and demands) in these cases i told them what i can do , whom does not have an bank account, i simply passes thru wind

So when i go thru life like this few wonderful people have created an account for me too so that i can collect your blessings and decorating their future , whenever possible and whatever we can, also can be as free as i am without the burden of organisation or positions.

though it is just for social purpose , to control the funds and to ensure the purpose of support i agreed to be in my name for time being, as we are working together for few other things.  Those who interest can deposit whatever you can. I can just transfer to those who needs it. 

also this could be a possibility for many wonderful beings whom i met here, to feel that they could do something for me. because doing something for my people is also doing for me. what else i need ?

if i need money or donation or organisation or position i can create by now , for that i have all necessary experience and exposure. but i choosed to be like this. but at the same time when time offers some possibility , if i not convert into reality , i will miss the possibility of reaching out others. i want to do it just as gratitude for the one who reached me out. so i accepted the offer.

Account details

Name :- swami sushantha

SB account no: 

Branch : Guptakashi

Bank : Punjab national Bank

IFSC no:- PUNB0786300    (please not to deposit hereafter as we deposited the collected amount to the student's account - 04/07/2014)

Please mention your details such as name, address ,how much deposited , when ,(as to anamica) , mobile number (if u want) or mail id  to the mail id swami.sushantha@gmail.com

Noble hearts can bless the girl to continue her education. 

Update :_ 
on this request the following people donated and the donation has been deposited in the college bank account , uttaranchal ayurvedic college, Punjab National Bank , Dehradun,a/c no 1175000110113951)

sharmila     -         Rs. 2000
piraisudi     -          rs   2000
Rm senthilkumar -   rs. 5000
subbarao devaraj -- Rs. 10000
velawan malasiya - Rs 5000
vijay usa             - Rs 1000  totally rs 25000 deposited in bank - in college bank account on 4/7/2014 

as the last date (7th july 2014) is nearing , i deleted my account details . pranams

Its 3rd June - your day viji akka- happy birth day

It is always unique day in my life. If at all if I have got privilege to  experience and cherish some one other than sadhguru means, that’s viji akka. Yes still she is viji akka only for me.

my meeting with her started on 2nd aug 1993 , the same day that i first met with sadhguru. It was the very very initial days of isha. I still remember how she is passionately looked at all stones and constructed the house.

Every time she comes from Coimbatore , she will bring some cadbary chocolates, which she only has to give to every one. She never trust anyone in this regard.

She knows what each and every one of us likes. She the one who taught me how to do besibelabath.

When I come back from the vaithegi falls trek in half way , during the Indian hockey team attended program in 1996, due to help and organize in kitchen, she took me to home and gave hot hot dosa’s to me and rajshekar.

I know her fond of love to somu anna (swami gurubhiksha)

I remember how she supported me to get the 22 lit cooker for the kitchen, which we (sadhguru , me and her) discussed lot ,to get sponsor for rs 6000 (we thought). But when swami nirvichara told it is rs.2500 (actually we suspected he misguiding us in cost) But it is she organized the donation to purchase.

After that she went for karma yatra. During teachers training in jan 1997, when she came to know that I did not inform her about the new arrival , she just as sister , with fond of love commented and scolded.

I know how she fought with love with sadhguru , just because he supported me to get TVS 50 instead of scooty.

I know how she defended and supported us in 7 stones game against sadhguru’s team.

It was my first trip in the thanneerpandal road in midnight to outside of ashram in tvs 50 only on the day she left.

I have been fortunate to travel with her to guptakashi for the first time to Himalayas in 1996

I have been fortunate to take a picture with her and sadhguru , among few , behind Kedarnath temple , at the memorial of Adisankaracharya.

For me , till now I never felt she is not with me or us .

For me she always sitting with sadhguru in the varanda of her house and talking to me , that’s the picture in my eyes.

For me always her voice ringing in my ears if I thought about the house or those periods or whenever 3^rd june comes

Its in 2001, when I was in dhyanalinga seva (for 15 days), just exactly on 3^rd june, one Bangalore women with family came at 6.45 am in the morning. From her hairstyle , colour of saree, every of her action and speech etc etc all reflected and reminded her.

I was filled with emotion as if she herself came to see the completion of her dream and work. Meena (then volunteer) and swami nirvichara are other two persons I could reach at that time to show her (because of they came for the temple at that time)

It is at her Samadhi , I started singing first after we did at shrine. It is at her feet sounds of isha bloomed in the presence of him.

The tribute by muthaiah anna , in the album dhayanalinga, oru malaria ingu malarndhai song is perfectly fit. Swarnalatha beautifully given the voice for the song.

At last , I don’t know what sadhana I did or doing in this life. But she blessed me first with her curd rice , during the pournami meditation process for dhayanalinga , (which was photographed by Rajshekar) which followed by him with a comment , hey seetha , show ur hand properly he is going to take photograph (he also choosed me to give food- I was too hungry on that day ).the other person she blessed the prasadham is her favourite somu anna (Swami gurubhiksha)

These memories and those prasadham will take care of me , beyond my life and death.

I want to put the picture of she is sitting next to sadhguru in the front varandha at her house, while talking to me , because that is there in my eyes but I don’t have drawing skills so I am putting her Samadhi picture.

I came by and for him. But it’s she only maked me.

Sadhguru is precious. No wonder. Me not even worth to utter the sacred name of him.

But she ……………………….  My eyelids only can say about her. If u have capacity to see me beyond my words and expressions, it will reflect in your eyes too.

If at all in this world if I can’t say thank you or express my gratitude its my viji akka. But I have only those things akka.

I don’t know whether I will get one more moment to express me or not, though I know it won’t express what I had in my life. But still as an effort I will try.

its your day viji akka , but i too have a part in it , to cherish and have in memory as long as "I" exists

nomatter where you are , this day have you , and i have this day one more time in my life. so Happy birth day to you

Thank you to enrich me . 

பெயரில்லாத நொடிகள்

நொடிகளுக்குள் தொலைந்து போகிறேன்

தொலைந்திடாத என்னை மீட்டெடுக்கிறேன்

படிகளில் நடனமாடுகிறேன் – ஆனால்

அவை மேலே செல்பவையா அல்லது கீழிறிங்குபவையா

என்பதை அறியாமலே ஆனந்தப்படுகிறேன்

அவ்வப்போது உளறல்களை எழுதித்தள்ளுகிறேன்

ஆனால் உண்மையில் என்னை உள்வாங்குகிறேன்

நொடிகளின் உலகம் பிரபஞ்சத்திற்கு அப்பால் விரிந்து

வாழ்வதற்கு நேரமின்றி வாழ்கிறேன்

அந்த வாழ்வினுடே என்னை தொலைக்கிறேன்

உறங்கும் போதே கனவுகள் நினைவடுக்கில் எட்டி பார்க்கிறது

நித்தம் நித்தம் பிரசவித்து நீள் நொடியை எதிரொலிக்கிறது

கண் விழித்த தருணம் காலை சூரியன் தன் பயணம் தொடங்கியிருந்தான்

என் பயணம் தொடங்குவது எப்போது ?

எவராவது சொல்லுங்களேன்

பயணத்தில் இளைப்பாறுகிறேனா அல்லது

இளைப்பாறுதலே பயணமா என்பது அறியாமலே

நொடிகளுக்குள் என்னை தொலைத்துப் போகிறேன்

தொலைப்பதற்கு கூட

மறதி மட்டும் போதாது திறமையும் வேண்டும்

மீண்டும் அதை தோண்டி எடுக்காதவகையில்

தோண்டி எடுப்பவை எல்லாமே ஞானம்தான்

ஆனால் விழித்தபின் உறங்க முடிவதில்லை

s its today 01-05-2014 - The unexpected on the day that i expected

Today 01^st may  , the great cine actor AJITH and many many labours will share with me as their day.  I generally remember this day for my mother , especially after her demise , due to morning 6 am call . After that no one could fill that vaccum, made me to feel the worthness of that call. Infact generally I have not attended , due to practice time , and I not remember. But she remembers well and only after her call , when somebody pass the message I will realize . Then around 7.45 am she will call again incase if I not got in line for the first time.

These days generally I receive only msgs , not calls from any one . my (brother’s) daughters will call in the recent years at some point of time. But 

today 01^st may 2014 is very unique in many ways.

First time I took long time to finish all my responses to all who wished and still it is pending. Only today I realize is this many people in the mid of their work and busy life still find their time .

Daily I too see many notifications but only some time I used to send , mainly due to poor network and on travel.

First thing today dharshan of kedar utsav moorthy , doli, on the way to his kedar trip.

Picture – kedar doli is started its journey

The utsav moorthi starts

Rawat (pradhan pujari ) for 6 months with Doli

 Second though I was involved in social lifes such as camps and projects since from 15 age , today for the first time , I met a chief minister of state. In the mid of election meeting I submitted just a small memorandam , as to open up the door just with 2 suggestions , among one I myself expressed volunteering for the government  if government clears .

The Hon’able chief minister Shri Harish Rawat gone thru the letter and happy about proposal, said will get back me at the earliest thru district administration is really a blessing and mile stone and possible only by you people.

Picture – Hon’able CM going thru my letter

At the end of the meeting , kedar doli arrived at his second destination

For the first time in Himalayas and after a gap of nearly 3 years today I drived two wheeler with my friend while coming back from meeting.

it was blessing that this part is celebrating Parasuram Jeyanthi today
and all these milestones once again as usual on thursday , the day for Guru

The day I remember her

She knows me before I know her

She spoke to before I spoke to her

She played with me before I play with her

She taught me lot before I taught life to her

She carried me physically though I not once carried her

She is the only women who hugged me with more love and joy

She is the only women who scold me lot too

She is the only women who proud of me being in her life no matter how I am

She is the women I hugged her just by breaking my thought of man

She is the only women in my life whom I offered my poem at her death bed

At that time also I know she is leaving me but she does not know I will not come with her

This day , since I left her in 95 , not a single year she missed to call at 6 am just to convey her blessings, that too only in her final days mobile technology started reaching .

Now I am at highest place of the world , hope at her heart too

But always besides her lotus feet

As a child I called her as AMMA

As a man my culture taught me to call as AMMA

I don’t know how many of her dreams fulfilled

But I am certainly fulfilled one of her dream , by living joyfully and in benevolence

Only her moment of motherhood brought me all this in my life , which I called as experience , exposure , god and Guru

Without her my life has not fulfilled in anything

I am not overwhelming in love but when I see I have not given back anything to her , I am in tears

She is half of my father , so in a way I remember him also through her

Don’t know whether I will have one more birthday to write one more saying about them , but as long as I have this kind of day in my life , I will remember her and him , not because they become my parents but I have atleast two people to share my gratitude beyond my GURU

I could feel your birthday wishes not just in your presence but in your absence too.

Thank you maa to give me this day in my life .

Bow down to you.

Swami sushantha

01-05-2014 (stepping in 45th birthday)

அவனுக்கு என் நன்றிகள்

என் முகத்தில் ஒட்டியிருக்கும் சாணியை நான் காண முடியாது . பிறர் காட்டினால் மட்டுமே. அவர்கள் கருணை கொண்டு அதை துடைத்து விட்டால் மட்டுமே. ஆனால் அதற்கு நான் அவர்களை அனுமதித்தால் மட்டுமே சாத்தியம். என் முடிவுகளாலும் , என் தகவல்களாலும், விருப்பு வெறுப்புக்களினாலும் என் முகத்தை மூடிக் கொண்டு இருந்தேனாயாகில் எவராலும் என் அசிங்கத்தை துடைத்தெறிய முடியாது. அதனாலேயே எனக்கு பிடிக்காவிடினும் , வலித்தாலும் அந்த அவரை அனுமதிக்க சித்தம் கொள்கிறேன். துடைத்தெறிபவரை பற்றி எனக்கு கவலையில்லை. என் கவலையெல்லாம் என் கவனமெல்லாம் என் அசிங்கம் போக்குவதே. என்னை பற்றிய என் கருத்துக்கள் களைவதே. என்னை பற்றிய என் கருத்துக்களே வேண்டாம் என்றிருக்கும் போது அடுத்தவர் பற்றி எக்கருத்தும் நான் சுமக்க வில்லை. நீங்கள் எப்படி வேண்டுமானாலும் இருந்து விட்டுப் போங்கள் . அது உங்கள் விருப்பம். என் சுமைகளின் பாரம் அறிந்தவன் நான். அவன் அறைகூவலை கேட்டு அவனிடத்தில் செல்கிறேன். அவனே என் பாரத்தை இறக்கி வைக்க கூடியவன். அவன் பெயர் என்ன என்பதில் எனக்கு ஆர்வமில்லை. அவனில் மட்டுமே என் ஆர்வம். அவன் யாராய் இருந்தால் எனக்கென்ன ? எப்படி இருந்தால் எனக்கென்ன? வழியில்லாத வழியில் பயணிக்கும் நான் , என் பயணத்தையும், பாதையையும் முடிந்த வரை ஆனந்தமாக்குறேன். என் அசிங்கத்தை பெற்றுக் கொண்டு எனக்கழகை தரும் அவனுக்கு என் நன்றிகள்.