Reaching out Nepal

few days ago when the earth got jolted for few seconds , first time in my life i too experienced the earth quake. i am just looked up the roof , thinking about how to run over etc etc.

The 2 continous jolts reminded me lot about that nights , that my people go through in Nepal. In fact i too was fully awake as i did in 17th june 2013 (earlier many times due to work or mahashivarathiri celebrations only) and always on alert to run , sorry i can't run in between a narrow street where both sides huge and tall buildings standing. so i cleared a space under cot. ofcourse i am fully prepared and ready bag to travel either to heaven or to hell.

As a person who witnessed the disaster managements , the attitude of civilized peoples in those unexpected situations, the lengthy procedures and systems of Governments, the service of selfless and dedicated individuals, the representatives of NGO's who are busy with documentation and capturing in pictures that express every single act of them which not only helps more support mobilization but also promote their fame and reputation , of course the sensible and responsible people who born with rights and always want to expose what Government or NGO's not does , the filthy (sorry fifth) pillar of democracy ....... beating hearts etc etc.

It is still unbelievable for myself that I also wish to do something for my people. What else a human should do in this moment? Either he sit and do the fb post with few write ups, Post RIP's comments, share the pictures , twit a comment,  criticize some one which can express our wisdom Or silently reach out our universal family and do whatever he /she can in that moment.

Though i have accepted the responsibility of offering my volunteering service to  Kedarnath Sewa Samithi​ still that also not yet grown like me. ha ha.  But when i suggested them, i wish to do something for my nepal, they also could not able to do except showing me green signal.

I know as an individual or as a team of organisation , nowhere near to the demand. Many people will say it's just Black to White conversion activity. But i respect that too. Because even such a activity feeds many many millions who does not know what's next? Gives the hope and trust on life and people around them.

I remember how people just wandered here and there just to find a little possibility of escaping from death. Life is happening just fraction of fraction of nano seconds. many of the people just few seconds behind me on 17th june 2013 morning, today they become history. It is not me winner. It is just me keep going without knowing where I will end or how I will end? But running pumps lot of adrenaline in the system. Makes us, to become part of life in the given moment. Makes me, not to carry the burden of win or loss. Makes me, to give my best in the moment. No wonder i love sports and games.

I don't want just to be a spectator. Even when i play computer games or mobile games i could able to watch how my adrenaline and pressure increases. Whether i win or not certainly i don't want to lose the game or moment. It is in such a way i wish to live that death should be proud to take my wicket. The moment should freeze for the loss what it cherished so far.

Unlike last time, this time, our kedarnath sewa samithi fb page given me to post an wonderful opportunity so that i can become postman for you people , once again. Sincerely when i posted a status i did not expect any single penny. for the people who enquired in inbox i just replied as, it is just i am trying to reach my heart beat sound thats all.

I know i can't even knock the doors of Big ashrams or NGO's that are announcing programs and projects for Nepal. Many of them not even choose me. i know that. Because, they had to take care me too. And there are already lot and lot of people waiting in queue, to serve from their end by paying for them.

The very big corporate companies and billionaires are ready with supply of loads and loads of fresh materials. All of them want to this charity either with the blessings of their spiritual masters or God. No one wants to do simply just for doing. They strongly believe that their master or God will help them in the super most court , in presenting their argument on the final judgment day  and erase all papas or add punyas in their accounting sheets.

i really thank to the person who invented the Papa (sin). If that is not there by this time i dont know how many humans will remember their heart beat and humanity. And these materials by distributing through the volunteers of their organization , the service organization will get fame, donations. Of course i wont blame those charity institutions.

Only those handful of religious mad man's (it is sad they exists in all religions though majority goes to Christianity and Islam), who rightly misinterpret and sell their holy books in hospitals and at death houses too. They have no value for others rights to practice what they follow for many many generations.

Even in Uttarakhand the post disaster situations exposed this pseudo secularism from politicians, which brought first time churches. But i must settle for minimum satisfaction because the so called opposing groups not yet brought good hospitals or labs which can serve people in less cost and better way. On the other hand those Churches also not yet brought. That's the reality.

so i was in the middle of how to reach out my people in Nepal. But when few  local uttarakhand people given me some hope, saying that they are collecting some materials which can be transported to Nepal through their local contact in Nepal. Many of you aware that  Nepali people are the Major part of labours who are doing work in Uttarakhand .

i also posted an appeal. For this , i got the sound of few more hearts.

Raji Kumarasamy and krishna  -- Rs. 10000
nandhagopalu balakichenine        - Rs.5000

Harini Jambunathan                   -- Rs. 2500.00

two people who did NEFT transfer - Rs. 2500.00+Rs. 3164

So Rounded with collections received from pilgrims and locals , Rs.25,000 today i taken from bank account and sent through a volunteer who are joining the relief work team which is going to Nepal for distribution of collected materials.

They are meeting the other members of their team in haridwar today (12/5/2015). Though i personally thought to go with them at least up to haridwar and give as materials , instead of cash, for me to transfer these funds into samithi account (for which i need the complete details of donors including their ID numbers) its a lengthy and demanding process. And i also thought instead of me going, for which anyway min Rs.1500 to Rs.2000 expenses, because it take 3 days min ( to go down 1 day , to come up again 1 day and work 1 day) which can be utilised for good cause and purpose.  

So i took help of   person who is living in haridwar , to ensure the purchase of quality materials worth to this amount. (just now -12/5/2015 , 8 pm , got the message from Sharmaji, who is a tailor , that he got materials not just only for this cost. But what he did is, he took these boys at every shop in the market, spoke about me - many of them just know me whenever i go there -- though we have not spoken --especially due to discovery Tv -these days many recognise me at Haridwar and Rishikesh -- collected some of the materials as free , such as blanket, pants, tshirts, sweaters, shoes ) what a job really. just once in a year i met him. he was the one who stitched my kurtha -pyjama - after i lost everything in kedar flood )

when these boys told me last night , that he is leaving today (11/05/2015)morning , i made them to wait for few hours, just to take the money from bank and give to them.

But there also God's play came so i reached out one of the local person got his timely support, gave them and send them first  then i took the money from bank and given to this person.

These team of young boys from different places somehow managed to collect a truck load of materials, many of them in touch with me in fb, just only one person i know personally. In fact when they discussed the idea, it gave me immense satisfaction and i guided and supported them with various information's by referring various organizations who are doing field work in this time. In fact they them self had similar kind of experience just 2 years ago.

These simple people just want to support their labours, who are from Nepal region. They don't have any banner, not know skilled and trained people like in big organizations. But it is their heart that beats the music for their fellow humans. It is very amazing that they collected one truck load of materials which consists of grocessaries, lantrens, blankets, children wear, dresses, few tents.

They not even planned to work like organizations by choosing one particular place. Because, quantity of materials collected is not enough for the demand. So i guided them to reach out any of the organizations which are working there and offer their collection materials and do the physical sewa to the people who are already offering their service to humanity.

I know this is not even a miniscule for the demand. But i must satisfy only with this best. This too is possible only because of those four wonderful people. I know there are many many hearts beating the music for our people in Nepal. Even i got few requests of donations today(11/05/2015) after i given money to the volunteers and send off them. I Guided all of them to support any of the organisations, few i listed (like GOONCH, RAMAKRISHNA MISSION).

let us pray that no one should face such situation in their life. Because living as Beggar is different. But when time suddenly makes you as beggar is different. I consciously choose to live as a Beggar, only in External way of living. That's the difference.

Yes today i felt the need of Organisation, Camera, Documentation, publicity, promotion just to satisfy the donors to create the evidence for this act. But for a sanyasi, who lives in one meal that too both the room and food is offered by someone, just for sadhana purpose.

for the past 4 years when even great ashrams not willing to serve the meals for sadhakas more than 2 days, it is these simple local people keeping me in their fold of love and trust is really privilege and blessing of life.

People are believing/trusting that the photo documents, bills, banners are the proof for the service. Recently i am shocked when the Auditor of Sewa samithi also asks to create photo evidence for every activity that we do, in order to get exempted from tax. I told him, i do my best but incase if that is not satisfy and has to pay the tax, lets go ahead. Because who is going to give me a quality Camera, who is there with me to take pictures, who is there with me to work for without payment?

It is the Grace of my Guru and Shiva that keeps me going with joy and grace.

above all i am neither interested to do all round about games in order to get exempt from income or service taxes. It is My rule. i am happy to follow.  I just told them to guide as per law and to keep the transparency in accounts. He was very happy to serve for me now. Even he cancelled his fees.

People like Shahjahan from Delhi is very big inspiration for me. He reaches out many people through his personnel bank account whenever some one reaches him for his appeals. It is the bondage of trust.

Neither I am not living in any organisation. Even for Kedarnath Sewa Samithi it is me only volunteering. Nor no donors behind me to take care of my every day , even my single meals of the day. If people not remember me then i go to bed without eating. Never felt hungry or tired. It is that day i need to be in fast thats why no one except shiva remembered me on that day.

I Trust people than their Papers and Evidences, which can be possible to create it. May be my services will not reach hundreds and millions. Its ok. Because i dream a world there no one should have any need to serve to another one. So i am happy to be in this way. Living and doing silently.

The one with Trust will walk with me and life. The one whose trust and faith is shaking will tremble when earth quakes. Whenever Earth shakes or Waves strikes or lands slides these are not just geometrical aspects, it also an aspect to bring to the ground from your own world of living in mind and feel your heart beat sounds.

There are few more reached out me now after i made the contribution. Very nice to see that. My heartful thanks to you people. I guided them to offer to any organisation or to PM relief fund as i could not take and complete their orders.

Many of you not aware of my situations. Since the survivol in kedarnath flood, till now not a single organisation or outfit reached out me. I don't even have permanent place to reside.  Today if the person who offers shelter ask me to change my room i can't go for searching for another one. Happily will settle at Lord viswanatha's lotus feet.

My bank account is a gift of life by Some one. Which always gets filled naturally whenever few hearts beats for my fb posts (only those time it brings bell sounds in mobile). And in a few days time it will become empty as it has to be.

Now one year passed since that man opened an bank account for me. In this one year, i did these kind of post man job for the people who contributed, for student's education, diwali celebrations in orphanages, taurpalin for cold wave protection in an orphanage, sadhu sewa's, now Nepal relief too. But My shiva takes care of my one meal.

This year through you people he has given me a banner to offer myself. He himself reached me through you and supported to offer and sponsor totally for the first time Annadhanam in Guptakashi during his arrival here on 20th april 2015. (Kedarnath Doli yatra to kedarnath for the season opening)

It is these simple people's beating hearts offering the shelter. tea and food. I am really privileged to have such wonderful people in my life. Even my Half baked Hindi earned few wonderful beings.

in Jan 2015, somehow i committed for a sadhu (due to the saying of some one after reading my post in blog) that i take care of their house rent (logically i can't, when i dont have any contacts or ask anyone) Even the devotee who initially told , later conveyed as its misunderstanding. But i already purchased a big taurpaulin, on the amount that he committed for me, which was badly needed for an orphanage, to protect the children from cold wave for the amount that the devotee committed.

But till now last 5 months somehow i get the support, don't even know who transfers the amount and he made me to fulfill my commitment to him, even though its just an misunderstanding. From this month i have increased 1/3rd of what i already given to them. And this support makes that sadhu to offer bhiksha for few more sadhu's who are coming in travel. It is nice to see these wonderful Sadhu's who want to do something for their fellow people irrespective of how the other one treats or sees them.

Now i committed and working to get the support for complete ration materials and other materials through which and through him , the Kedarnath sewa samithi can offer Annadhanam for sadhu's through out the year.

past six months so much there to write. i remember how i worked in 1993 to 97 initial days of isha , then in 2009 after deployed in Thenkailyam organisation , now again in 2015.

For the first time , All the four Nayanmar's standing in nearly 30 flex Banners from Guptakashi to Sonprayag. In 150 Posters their grace is radiating. Many of the materials i got as free. But the Labour charge still Rs.18000 is pending. But the man who worked is happily waiting for me with trust.

ஆனால் இங்கு தமிழகத்தில் இருந்து யாத்திரை வந்த கல்வித் துறையில் பணிபுரியும் ஆசிரிய பெருமகனார் ஒருவர் , இந்தி தெரியாது என்கிற காரணத்தால் உதவினால்......... 

நான் வேறு ஒரு விஷயமாக பிரதான் பூஜாரிக்கு எழதிய கடிதத்தை கொண்டு வந்த காரணத்தினாலேயே கேதார்நாத்தில் அவருக்கு சிறப்பு தரிசனம் உள்பட அனைத்து வசதிகளையும் செய்து கொடுத்த அம்மனிதர் எங்கே ? என் முகம் முன் சிரித்து பேசி அந்த பக்கம் ஒரு யாத்ரீகரிடம் புறம் பேசி செல்லும் இவர் எங்கே?

Already the life of isha taught me to do anything without any expectation. I always feel privileged about what i got so far. Now the flood made me to live without anything , even the expectations of sadhana has been taken off. Even after waiting for 6 months, past 20 days i could be able to sit at his feet in Guptakashi with utmost Trust. Since oct 25th 2014, i came down from kedar, i was just expecting these days of going back to kedar and continue my sadhana.

But now without Rs.100 one can't stay there in Government tents. This is because now local people not yet moved to kedar. For the past 2 years, the locals not have any tourism. The Government in the name of rebuilding economy for locals, instead of providing Governance it runs hotels and lodges.

At least till last year, it offered free services of food and shelter. But this time, it brought payment of Rs.100. May be next year it may increase to Rs.500.

Though given application to allot some land, My shiva is still not yet wake up to grant. Nor he not yet given few rooms for samithi so that i can live there and serve to devotees along with my sadhana. Any way he is the master and he has complete rights. And he always does right things at right time.

So let me wait 364 days for that one day to count. After all it is just years. If i have washed out in flood it may be in janma's. My willingness and patience brings joy and trust for me. Not only that it brings wonderful people like you and make me to serve for humanity. Enjoying the Post Man Job.

Because, for such social works a Sanyasi do not required.  Just humans with live with care and concern is enough. The job of a sanyasi is creating people, not creating the one more Organization. An organization is just a basic system which can help those people to support each other in their needs and to educate and equip them self to offer them self as a universal volunteer.

Let us Create More Universal Volunteers.

யாதும் ஊரே யாவரும் கேளீர்

in the service of My lord

swami sushantha

12/05/2015