few days ago when the
earth got jolted for few seconds , first time in my life i too experienced the
earth quake. i am just looked up the roof , thinking about how to run over etc
etc.
The 2 continous jolts
reminded me lot about that nights , that my people go through in Nepal. In fact
i too was fully awake as i did in 17th june 2013 (earlier many times due to
work or mahashivarathiri celebrations only) and always on alert to run , sorry
i can't run in between a narrow street where both sides huge and tall buildings
standing. so i cleared a space under cot. ofcourse i am fully prepared and
ready bag to travel either to heaven or to hell.
As a person who
witnessed the disaster managements , the attitude of civilized peoples in those
unexpected situations, the lengthy procedures and systems of Governments, the
service of selfless and dedicated individuals, the representatives of NGO's who
are busy with documentation and capturing in pictures that express every single
act of them which not only helps more support mobilization but also promote
their fame and reputation , of course the sensible and responsible people who
born with rights and always want to expose what Government or NGO's not does ,
the filthy (sorry fifth) pillar of democracy ....... beating hearts etc etc.
It is still
unbelievable for myself that I also wish to do something for my people. What
else a human should do in this moment? Either he sit and do the fb post with few
write ups, Post RIP's comments, share the pictures , twit a comment, criticize some one which can express our
wisdom Or silently reach out our universal family and do whatever he /she can
in that moment.
Though i have
accepted the responsibility of offering my volunteering service to Kedarnath Sewa Samithi still that also not
yet grown like me. ha ha. But when i
suggested them, i wish to do something for my nepal, they also could not able
to do except showing me green signal.
I know as an
individual or as a team of organisation , nowhere near to the demand. Many
people will say it's just Black to White conversion activity. But i respect
that too. Because even such a activity feeds many many millions who does not
know what's next? Gives the hope and trust on life and people around them.
I remember how people
just wandered here and there just to find a little possibility of escaping from
death. Life is happening just fraction of fraction of nano seconds. many of the
people just few seconds behind me on 17th june 2013 morning, today they become
history. It is not me winner. It is just me keep going without knowing where I
will end or how I will end? But running pumps lot of adrenaline in the system. Makes
us, to become part of life in the given moment. Makes me, not to carry the
burden of win or loss. Makes me, to give my best in the moment. No wonder i
love sports and games.
I don't want just to
be a spectator. Even when i play computer games or mobile games i could able to
watch how my adrenaline and pressure increases. Whether i win or not certainly
i don't want to lose the game or moment. It is in such a way i wish to live
that death should be proud to take my wicket. The moment should freeze for the
loss what it cherished so far.
Unlike last time,
this time, our kedarnath sewa samithi fb page given me to post an wonderful
opportunity so that i can become postman for you people , once again. Sincerely
when i posted a status i did not expect any single penny. for the people who
enquired in inbox i just replied as, it is just i am trying to reach my heart
beat sound thats all.
I know i can't even
knock the doors of Big ashrams or NGO's that are announcing programs and
projects for Nepal. Many of them not even choose me. i know that. Because, they
had to take care me too. And there are already lot and lot of people waiting in
queue, to serve from their end by paying for them.
The very big
corporate companies and billionaires are ready with supply of loads and loads
of fresh materials. All of them want to this charity either with the blessings
of their spiritual masters or God. No one wants to do simply just for doing.
They strongly believe that their master or God will help them in the super most
court , in presenting their argument on the final judgment day and erase all papas or add punyas in their
accounting sheets.
i really thank to the
person who invented the Papa (sin). If that is not there by this time i dont
know how many humans will remember their heart beat and humanity. And these
materials by distributing through the volunteers of their organization , the
service organization will get fame, donations. Of course i wont blame those
charity institutions.
Only those handful of
religious mad man's (it is sad they exists in all religions though majority
goes to Christianity and Islam), who rightly misinterpret and sell their holy
books in hospitals and at death houses too. They have no value for others
rights to practice what they follow for many many generations.
Even in Uttarakhand
the post disaster situations exposed this pseudo secularism from politicians,
which brought first time churches. But i must settle for minimum satisfaction
because the so called opposing groups not yet brought good hospitals or labs
which can serve people in less cost and better way. On the other hand those
Churches also not yet brought. That's the reality.
so i was in the
middle of how to reach out my people in Nepal. But when few local uttarakhand people given me some hope,
saying that they are collecting some materials which can be transported to
Nepal through their local contact in Nepal. Many of you aware that Nepali people are the Major part of labours
who are doing work in Uttarakhand .
i also posted an
appeal. For this , i got the sound of few more hearts.
Raji Kumarasamy and
krishna -- Rs. 10000
nandhagopalu balakichenine - Rs.5000
nandhagopalu balakichenine - Rs.5000
Harini
Jambunathan -- Rs. 2500.00
two people who did
NEFT transfer - Rs. 2500.00+Rs. 3164
So Rounded with
collections received from pilgrims and locals , Rs.25,000 today i taken from
bank account and sent through a volunteer who are joining the relief work team
which is going to Nepal for distribution of collected materials.
They are meeting the
other members of their team in haridwar today (12/5/2015). Though i personally thought to go with them at least up to haridwar and give as
materials , instead of cash, for me to transfer these funds into samithi
account (for which i need the complete details of donors including their ID
numbers) its a lengthy and demanding process. And i also thought instead of me going, for which anyway min Rs.1500 to Rs.2000 expenses, because it take 3 days min ( to go down 1 day , to come up again 1 day and work 1 day) which can be utilised for good cause and purpose.
So i took help of person who is living in haridwar , to ensure the purchase of quality materials worth to this amount. (just now -12/5/2015 , 8 pm , got the message from Sharmaji, who is a tailor , that he got materials not just only for this cost. But what he did is, he took these boys at every shop in the market, spoke about me - many of them just know me whenever i go there -- though we have not spoken --especially due to discovery Tv -these days many recognise me at Haridwar and Rishikesh -- collected some of the materials as free , such as blanket, pants, tshirts, sweaters, shoes ) what a job really. just once in a year i met him. he was the one who
So i took help of person who is living in haridwar , to ensure the purchase of quality materials worth to this amount. (just now -12/5/2015 , 8 pm , got the message from Sharmaji, who is a tailor , that he got materials not just only for this cost. But what he did is, he took these boys at every shop in the market, spoke about me - many of them just know me whenever i go there -- though we have not spoken --especially due to discovery Tv -these days many recognise me at Haridwar and Rishikesh -- collected some of the materials as free , such as blanket, pants, tshirts, sweaters, shoes ) what a job really. just once in a year i met him. he was the one who
when these boys told
me last night , that he is leaving today (11/05/2015)morning , i made them to
wait for few hours, just to take the money from bank and give to them.
But there also God's
play came so i reached out one of the local person got his timely support, gave
them and send them first then i took the
money from bank and given to this person.
These team of young
boys from different places somehow managed to collect a truck load of
materials, many of them in touch with me in fb, just only one person i know personally.
In fact when they discussed the idea, it gave me immense satisfaction and i
guided and supported them with various information's by referring various organizations
who are doing field work in this time. In fact they them self had similar kind
of experience just 2 years ago.
These simple people
just want to support their labours, who are from Nepal region. They don't have
any banner, not know skilled and trained people like in big organizations. But
it is their heart that beats the music for their fellow humans. It is very
amazing that they collected one truck load of materials which consists of grocessaries,
lantrens, blankets, children wear, dresses, few tents.
They not even planned
to work like organizations by choosing one particular place. Because, quantity
of materials collected is not enough for the demand. So i guided them to reach
out any of the organizations which are working there and offer their collection
materials and do the physical sewa to the people who are already offering their
service to humanity.
I know this is not even
a miniscule for the demand. But i must satisfy only with this best. This too is
possible only because of those four wonderful people. I know there are many
many hearts beating the music for our people in Nepal. Even i got few requests
of donations today(11/05/2015) after i given money to the volunteers and send
off them. I Guided all of them to support any of the organisations, few i
listed (like GOONCH, RAMAKRISHNA MISSION).
let us pray that no
one should face such situation in their life. Because living as Beggar is
different. But when time suddenly makes you as beggar is different. I
consciously choose to live as a Beggar, only in External way of living. That's
the difference.
Yes today i felt the
need of Organisation, Camera, Documentation, publicity, promotion just to
satisfy the donors to create the evidence for this act. But for a sanyasi, who
lives in one meal that too both the room and food is offered by someone, just for
sadhana purpose.
for the past 4 years when
even great ashrams not willing to serve the meals for sadhakas more than 2
days, it is these simple local people keeping me in their fold of love and
trust is really privilege and blessing of life.
People are
believing/trusting that the photo documents, bills, banners are the proof for
the service. Recently i am shocked when the Auditor of Sewa samithi also asks
to create photo evidence for every activity that we do, in order to get
exempted from tax. I told him, i do my best but incase if that is not satisfy
and has to pay the tax, lets go ahead. Because who is going to give me a
quality Camera, who is there with me to take pictures, who is there with me to
work for without payment?
It is the Grace of my
Guru and Shiva that keeps me going with joy and grace.
above all i am
neither interested to do all round about games in order to get exempt from
income or service taxes. It is My rule. i am happy to follow. I just told them to guide as per law and to
keep the transparency in accounts. He was very happy to serve for me now. Even
he cancelled his fees.
People like Shahjahan
from Delhi is very big inspiration for me. He reaches out many people through
his personnel bank account whenever some one reaches him for his appeals. It is
the bondage of trust.
Neither I am not
living in any organisation. Even for Kedarnath Sewa Samithi it is me only
volunteering. Nor no donors behind me to take care of my every day , even my
single meals of the day. If people not remember me then i go to bed without
eating. Never felt hungry or tired. It is that day i need to be in fast thats
why no one except shiva remembered me on that day.
I Trust people than
their Papers and Evidences, which can be possible to create it. May be my
services will not reach hundreds and millions. Its ok. Because i dream a world
there no one should have any need to serve to another one. So i am happy to be
in this way. Living and doing silently.
The one with Trust will walk with me and life. The one whose trust and
faith is shaking will tremble when earth quakes. Whenever Earth shakes or Waves
strikes or lands slides these are not just geometrical aspects, it also an
aspect to bring to the ground from your own world of living in mind and feel
your heart beat sounds.
There are few more reached out me now after i made the contribution.
Very nice to see that. My heartful thanks to you people. I guided them to offer
to any organisation or to PM relief fund as i could not take and complete their
orders.
Many of you not aware of my situations. Since the survivol in kedarnath
flood, till now not a single organisation or outfit reached out me. I don't
even have permanent place to reside. Today if the person who offers shelter ask me
to change my room i can't go for searching for another one. Happily will settle
at Lord viswanatha's lotus feet.
My bank account is a gift of life by Some one. Which always gets filled
naturally whenever few hearts beats for my fb posts (only those time it brings
bell sounds in mobile). And in a few days time it will become empty as it has
to be.
Now one year passed since that man opened an bank account for me. In
this one year, i did these kind of post man job for the people who contributed,
for student's education, diwali celebrations in orphanages, taurpalin for cold
wave protection in an orphanage, sadhu sewa's, now Nepal relief too. But My
shiva takes care of my one meal.
This year through you people he has given me a banner to offer myself.
He himself reached me through you and supported to offer and sponsor totally
for the first time Annadhanam in Guptakashi during his arrival here on 20th
april 2015. (Kedarnath Doli yatra to kedarnath for the season opening)
It is these simple people's beating hearts offering the shelter. tea and
food. I am really privileged to have such wonderful people in my life. Even my
Half baked Hindi earned few wonderful beings.
in Jan 2015, somehow i committed for a sadhu (due to the saying of some
one after reading my post in blog) that i take care of their house rent
(logically i can't, when i dont have any contacts or ask anyone) Even the
devotee who initially told , later conveyed as its misunderstanding. But i
already purchased a big taurpaulin, on the amount that he committed for me,
which was badly needed for an orphanage, to protect the children from cold wave
for the amount that the devotee committed.
But till now last 5 months somehow i get the support, don't even know
who transfers the amount and he made me to fulfill my commitment to him, even
though its just an misunderstanding. From this month i have increased 1/3rd of
what i already given to them. And this support makes that sadhu to offer
bhiksha for few more sadhu's who are coming in travel. It is nice to see these
wonderful Sadhu's who want to do something for their fellow people irrespective
of how the other one treats or sees them.
Now i committed and working to get the support for complete ration
materials and other materials through which and through him , the Kedarnath
sewa samithi can offer Annadhanam for sadhu's through out the year.
past six months so much there to write. i remember how i worked in 1993
to 97 initial days of isha , then in 2009 after deployed in Thenkailyam
organisation , now again in 2015.
For the first time , All the four Nayanmar's standing in nearly 30 flex
Banners from Guptakashi to Sonprayag. In 150 Posters their grace is radiating.
Many of the materials i got as free. But the Labour charge still Rs.18000 is
pending. But the man who worked is happily waiting for me with trust.
ஆனால் இங்கு தமிழகத்தில் இருந்து யாத்திரை வந்த கல்வித்
துறையில் பணிபுரியும் ஆசிரிய பெருமகனார் ஒருவர் , இந்தி தெரியாது என்கிற காரணத்தால்
உதவினால்.........
நான் வேறு ஒரு விஷயமாக பிரதான் பூஜாரிக்கு எழதிய கடிதத்தை கொண்டு வந்த காரணத்தினாலேயே கேதார்நாத்தில் அவருக்கு சிறப்பு தரிசனம் உள்பட அனைத்து வசதிகளையும் செய்து கொடுத்த அம்மனிதர் எங்கே ? என் முகம் முன் சிரித்து பேசி அந்த பக்கம் ஒரு யாத்ரீகரிடம் புறம் பேசி செல்லும் இவர் எங்கே?
நான் வேறு ஒரு விஷயமாக பிரதான் பூஜாரிக்கு எழதிய கடிதத்தை கொண்டு வந்த காரணத்தினாலேயே கேதார்நாத்தில் அவருக்கு சிறப்பு தரிசனம் உள்பட அனைத்து வசதிகளையும் செய்து கொடுத்த அம்மனிதர் எங்கே ? என் முகம் முன் சிரித்து பேசி அந்த பக்கம் ஒரு யாத்ரீகரிடம் புறம் பேசி செல்லும் இவர் எங்கே?
Already the life of
isha taught me to do anything without any expectation. I always feel privileged
about what i got so far. Now the flood made me to live without anything , even
the expectations of sadhana has been taken off. Even after waiting for 6
months, past 20 days i could be able to sit at his feet in Guptakashi with
utmost Trust. Since oct 25th 2014, i came down from kedar, i was just expecting
these days of going back to kedar and continue my sadhana.
But now without
Rs.100 one can't stay there in Government tents. This is because now local
people not yet moved to kedar. For the past 2 years, the locals not have any
tourism. The Government in the name of rebuilding economy for locals, instead
of providing Governance it runs hotels and lodges.
At least till last
year, it offered free services of food and shelter. But this time, it brought
payment of Rs.100. May be next year it may increase to Rs.500.
Though given
application to allot some land, My shiva is still not yet wake up to grant. Nor
he not yet given few rooms for samithi so that i can live there and serve to
devotees along with my sadhana. Any way he is the master and he has complete
rights. And he always does right things at right time.
So let me wait 364
days for that one day to count. After all it is just years. If i have washed
out in flood it may be in janma's. My willingness and patience brings joy and
trust for me. Not only that it brings wonderful people like you and make me to
serve for humanity. Enjoying the Post Man Job.
Because, for such social works a Sanyasi do not required. Just humans with live with care and concern is enough. The job of a sanyasi is creating people, not creating the one more Organization. An organization is just a basic system which can help those people to support each other in their needs and to educate and equip them self to offer them self as a universal volunteer.
Let us Create More
Universal Volunteers.
யாதும் ஊரே யாவரும் கேளீர்
in the service of My
lord
swami sushantha
12/05/2015
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