Thursday, 31 October 2013

oh my dear "YOU"

These days my feelings are so strange for me . don’t know what exactly it conveys to me. Sometimes I feel all my projects , desires will never get accomplish and gives me I am a failure in action. Other times I feel the only project is about me , just empty , no goal or no projects and gives me feel of complete and whole.

Wants to roam around the world just as a butterfly. But at the same time wants to sit in one place just like the rock unmoved for beyond time.

Wants to experience all nonsense in the world but at the same time feeling nothing is there to experience .

Keep working all the 24 hours in such a way I not even able to forget I am in sleep . but lost myself in my dreams and desires .

Wants to tell every one , that this may be my last msg to you but every message gives opportunity to say that .

Flood of memories not able to segregate whether it is reminding myself or not able to forget myself, making me to feel living in old age beyond the time.

Eyes is flooding in tears always in benevolence but still that one hand reminding me life beyond death.

If there is any innovation happened in the world , let me know whether it will express me.

Know nothing will express me , except me , but keep trying to express me within myself.

Please pardon my mistakes and me also . want to offer the myself to you but everytime I try I am getting fail.

May be in that moment , I don’t have time or expression to convey this to you or anyone . that’s y I am communicating now and here and you.

Because this “YOU “  is always plays greater role in mylife in every possible way  beyond my understanding.

Like “me” I could not found expression for this “YOU” but still I could feel this “You” is everywhere , so close to me , so far from me.

A moment will come but “I” will not be there to express that moment because this “YOU” will found its own expression

If “You” found your expression then compassionately remind me that its “YOU” not “me”

Knowing and experiencing

Don’t know why am I working with such mad?
But still keep working on something

Don’t know what am I going to achieve?
But never bothered or worried about that

Don’t know where my last breath will leave me
But every breath has lot of memories and dreams

Don’t know which of my expression will express me
But every action and inaction says something about me

Don’t know what the next moment has for me
But at every moment I have failure and success together in someway

Though I don’t know anything about life or death
I know I have just one breath and one moment

What I don’t know is making me to keep working

What I know making me to stand still

swami sushantha

Wednesday, 30 October 2013

sharing another poem written by vijay

Helpless Human

When Hapless life pushes us
to the edge of despicable state
When we desperate ourselves to solve
all the problems, we create

When we are forsaken by all those
whom we loved and cared
When we are not able to pursue
all that we once dared

When we feel cursed not to have
all that others enjoy in ease
When we feel the need for a magic wand
so that all our problems could cease

When we choose ourselves to play god
and go much out of control
When we forget the fact that we are
just a part, compared to the whole

I sought endless help in All
to bring my helplessness to a stall
I watched all my attemps fall
who leapt once, now made a crawl

Helpless man exists not for any reason
Fact is the other way around
Helplessness exists coz the man exists
himself caught self-bound

Try losing the idea of self
let life flow through as we allow
Why would we look for all the above ?
If we had already fallen in now
sharing the post & written by vijayragavan in his blog

Tuesday, 29 October 2013

sharing the poem of kavingar Ramanan - from his fb post

எங்கே நின்றுகொண்டிருக்கிறேன்?

மரணத்தின் தறுவாயா?
மரிக்கவிடாமல் சித்திரவதை செய்யும்
சீரழிவின் தறுவாயா? “நீ
கரணமிட்டது போதும்! என்
காலடியில் வந்து சேர்,” என்னும்
கடவுளின் தறுவாயா?
“சீட்டைக் கலைத்துப் போட்டால்தான்
ஆட்டம் தொடர முடியும்” என்று
சிரித்தபடித் தீர்ப்பெழுதும்
குருவின் தறுவாயா?

எங்கே நின்றுகொண்டிருக்கிறேன்?
எங்கோ நின்றுகொண்டுதானிருக்கிறேன்
நிலைவாயில்களில் சில
உலைவாயாக இருக்கலாம்
ஊர்வாயாக இருக்கலாம்
உயிரைப் பருகும் வாயாக இருக்கலாம்
ஒரு வெட்ட வெளியைத் தொட்டுக் காட்டும்
குறியீடாகவும் இருக்கலாம்

நின்றது நான்தான் என்றாலும், என்னை
நிறுத்திவைத்தது யார்?
என்று கேட்பதற்கு
எனக்கு இன்றும் உரிமையுண்டு

உயிரும் உடலும் உள்ளும் மனமும்
ஒன்று கூடிப் பழக உலகமும்
பல்கிப் பெருகும் பற்பல சுவைகளும்
படைப்பதும், கதவை
அடைப்பதும், ஓட்டை
உடைப்பதும், பறவை
விடைபெற்று உன்றன்
வீடு சேர்வதும்
எல்லாம் உன் செயலன்றோ?

எந்தன் சிந்தனை எந்தன் செய்கை
என்பதாக எதுவுமே இல்லையே!
அத்தனையும் உனது!
அனுபவம் மட்டும் எனது
அது புரியும்போது, உன்னில்
அடங்கிப் போகும் மனது!

கடமையிலிருந்து நழுவுவதற்கோ
சட்டங்களினை மீறுவதற்கோ
சாக்குச் சொல்லும் தத்துவம் இல்லை!

சிந்தனையும் செயலும்
உனதே உனதே என்று ஒப்புக்கொள்
எந்த விளைவையும் இப்போதும் கூட, நீ
தந்த பரிசென்றே தாங்கித் தணிகிறேன்

என்னவேண்டும் எனக்கு
உன்னைத் தவிர?

இன்பம் துன்பம் என்று நிலைமாறும்
அத்தனை அனுபவங்கள் மூலமும்
உன்னைத்தானே பருகிக்கொண்டிருக்கிறேன்
உயிர் உதிர உதிர.

written by கவிஞர் ரமணன் --shared from his fb post

Friday, 11 October 2013

my first public talk -- at kedar vikas prathikaran - Guptakasi on 8th oct 2013

it was the meeting held at guptakasi on 8th oct for their demands of compensation and rehabilation works - all the representatives of trade unions and other forums who are operating in kedar valley , including theerth purohit, lodge and hotel owners associations, godawala and poniwala unions attended

Wednesday, 9 October 2013

kedarnath - in the presence of samadhi pooja - temple closing ceremony for winder - 2012 nov 15th in minus 10 degrees

It is going to be one near now since i have been in this moment for the first time in my life. Just before few days of temple closing the mercury dipped to minus 14 and 15 and heavy snowfall daily witnessed once 1 pm in hot sun. But that day shiva was so compassionate to bring down to minus 10 . The water taps kept open for 24 hrs because it will become snow and freeze if flow is stopped .

this time another less than one month is there . it may be nov 4th or 5th . need to check up . Adding to fury this time river mandagini has taken diversion from her normal route. these days it cross the settlement area behind the temple area and flow in right side . which is vulnerable for next years and rainy seasons especially when ground level increased to 25 ft height .

let me see how shiva plans

here the lyrics (some how translated in english)

மந்திரங்கள் நான் அறியேன்           neither know any slokas or poojas to worship you
மாதவமும் நான் அறியேன்            nor even know any tapas to do
கருணை விழி பார்த்திருந்தேன்       looking at your eyes of compassionate
கசிந்துருகி விழி நனைத்தேன்        melted myself and shed tears in my eyelids
காலமெல்லாம் காத்திருந்தேன்       waiting for you beyond time
நின் காலடியில்  வீற்றிருந்தேன்     but living at your lotus feet
நின்னையே நான் நினைத்திருந்தேன் just in thought of you
என்னையும் நான் மறந்திருந்தேன்   even forget myself
தன்னிலையை இழந்து நன்றேன்    standing by loosing myself   
உன்னருளில் நனைந்திருந்தேன்     standing in shower of your grace and bless
ஊனுருகி உடன் இருந்தேன்- என்    just being with you   
உள்ளத்திலே கோயில் கொண்டாய்  and you taken shelter of temple of my heart
சுவாசத்திலே பரவி நின்றாய்        your presence spreading in my breath
கேதாரத்திலே வாசம் கொண்டாய்   but you living in kedar
என் குருவே சரணைடைந்தேன்     oh my Gurunadha I surrender to you
என்னிலுமே மலர்ந்திருந்தேன்      and bloomed within myself

அஞ்சேல் என்றே ஆண்டு கொண்டாய்

அருள் மோனநிலை பரிசளித்தாய்

சத்குருவே கேதாரேஷ்வரா

சரண்புகுந்தேன் குருநாதா

Monday, 7 October 2013

Dilip - the one i shared lot of life moments


the name and person never remembered nor forget at any moment so far since i met him in 1996 because he become part of me.

when he and his brother (swami aloka) entered in ashram for teachers training in jan 96.

shared life moments a lot and lot more worth which no one can ever imagine.

still remember he doing his kriya after reaching out coimbatore very late from coonoor initation in night. played together cricket in the yoga centre grounds. the singanallur office witnessed us lot , how one can forget?

the trust and faith he expressed is so melting. the devotion he showed is unmatchable. he only intruduced his best father and mother to me , whom i never forget and always seen as divine couple.

As his appa , he also had wits and jokes joyfully. managed lot and contributed lot for isha and for me. learned lot from him. shared many many things with him.

now i am reminding myself , i am choosen to be ascetic (sanyasi) not to worry or cry for what i lost . many things i earned many things i lost but few ....... i can't lost . these things will be in my every cell till my last breath ,may be i will carry even after

the early days of his wheezing problem i still remember. whatever i say about him, no one can get anything , even miniscule of what it is

but i know one thing , whether its life or death , sadhguru will take care

my last meeting with him is on the day of baba ramdev visit to yoga centre. after that we did not got opportunity , our work, to see each other . but i know as i carry him, he will also carried us .

but somehow he decided to drop but i not yet able to….

I bow down to you Dilip

I can’t say I am missing you ,because I am still carrying your presence and absence someway in my every expression

note : thanks for fb post