Thursday, 19 June 2014

A dark night at crematorium on 17th june 2013

Except for the one who lived or witnessed  , It is just one more moment in the phase of life. nothing significant or relate to it unless it leaves bundle of memory to you. Because generally we always connect with our limited memory , only thru which we can connect to the moment.

I called it as limited memory because even in that , we don’t know what our every cell has in it. It may have memories right from the stage of amoeba. But what we call as our memory is just a span of small time , between our age of 5 to now.

Every day lot of moments passed in one’s life. I am sure not many of us have such memory to remember everything that we gone thru in it. Generally , only when the moment passes thru with a kind of intensity and power to penetrate ,it lefts its impact strongly. For ages and ages we speak about it .

The one that  I want to talk about it is one such kind for sure. The recent history of Himalayas never faced such a kind . For one who encountered it is like he/she does not want to talk about it or remember it. For another who just listen the tales are so interesting and add curiosity to hear more versions.

Its just sheer power of the moment expressed in the waves. The fury of nature reminds its supreme power. The human is just becoming like toy in its hands. It proves the stories of maha pralaya that is been talking in veda’s and scriptures.

Today (17th june 2014) when all news channels mercilessly increasing the TRP rate without the concern or feel for life for what the individual faced. I see many tv crew in guptakashi for past 2 days. They don’t have anything new to show. All they want is sensational.

Somebody’s pain is the investment to earn. Its just coincidence or planned I don’t know . just now some one showed me the recent incident happened at himachal . could not be able to see after 1.30 min , when water topples them.

On the other hand , The video Clearly express the ignorance of educated. Their whole focus is on joy. They totally forget that they are standing in forest river, which anytime can raise. The common illiterate man will handle life better, because of he/she connected with nature around them,  I feel.
For sure the video shooter never expected he will record one such moment in his/her life. he/she may be did it to show it to their family and friends. But the local media reporter would have earned good money by selling it . I hope so.

Because I know how many lobbied me for the audio of this moment, which accidently recorded in my mp3 player for 1.30 mins. They does not even offered any payment. but so diplomatically spoken by various ways to get that. 

They also tried to get the video we recorded just on the 16th even by 4 pm. We simply recorded when we saw the water level in mandagini is just need another feet to touch the bridge that connecting kedarpuri to the trek path. Both of them we not ready to give. Especially the last sounds of many many beings at the temple gate.

Though it is just jai kedar and ohm namashivaya , and chalo chalo andhar chalo – still the intensity one can’t get from anywhere. Because it is the shout of people who are in 3 to 4 feet water current. for Few of them life not given choice to utter second time.

It is one such moment for every one who spared with life at Kedarnath on this day 17th june of last year 2013. Many others are blessed with death. They don’t have this struggle to carry.

All their struggle ended there itself, may be just for few seconds. The nature taken care of their destiny. Now this video that I seen in the evening flashing in my eyes again and again.

past mid night , I had same kind of tuning of chanting with my breath as I had in the last year night. The darkness of kedar blinking in my burning eyes. The gently waving hand of that unknown person who caught under debris disturbing my vision. My memory able to recollect every small thing that my eye balls witnessed.

All their struggle is for survival. But in the process of survival many lost war. Many feel they have won because of …….. (u can fill ur own reasons) .

May be I just postponed my last moment. The death is always waiting next to me. Its just waiting to swallow. As the moment made me to survive , the same moment also waiting to swallow.

Whether it is survive or swallowed , it just make difference only for me. No one is going to remember me. Or in otherwords few will have thoughts and emotions about me , here and there in their life , till they have such a thing , called memory.

Anyway its all too philosophical. Now we have it . And you aware of what you have. that’s the point. And that’s big difference can make both for you and for life around you.

Now I have been given others life , to survive and do things with much devotion, perseverance, passion, etc etc. For all the people who lived with me , in one of the previous moment, which I can connect with it , with date and time (17th june 2013) at Kedarnath , I bow down to you.

As a ordinary being , in this one year , I really moved lot within me. People due to their devotion praising about my services. For them I have to say , I am not worth for your praise. I have not done anything great. I just carrying the same passion and desire to make it happen.

It is me not interest to talk all these things. It is me want to capitalize something, honestly I accept. I have paid huge price. So now I want to buy the development for the price I given. That’s all.

And it is not so easy. Because I don’t have anything either capability or skill to get it. I am not even representing any organization for them to get relate. I don’t have huge vote bank behind me as followers. All I have is just passion for life.

In this one year I Learned to wait, just to wait. And keep working to make that possibility into reality.

Its keys of the grace that working. It only found expression as it wants to present itself at these steps. Some how life taken me infront of state CM. The doors of the decision making body is just open. Exactly on yesterday I entered in to it with my stuff , that I want to share. I will do my best.

I will create. Sorry , there is no I in my life since last one year. I always felt as representative of many many. To appear in discovery Tv , from a rural india, thousands and thousands of people buried themselves in the earth. I have not walked on top soil which eaten dead bodies. I walked on dead bodies itself. That’s why I claim You people also be a part of me. Without you , I am not here in this moment as I am.

But still one can See how fool I am , because  saying as I will create. Even this is wrong presentation , I would say.

Not just because of flood and deaths , even before, I was contributed by many many others. I am just miniscule of what they are. Just representing their contribution with my own limitations and mistakes.

Though I want to relate every one who graced my life moments , practically it is not possible for anyone to express. But all these is because of one person in my life so I am expressing to him.

he is the source of me . I am not yet worth to utter the word that can refer to him , but still I don’t have any other word or expression to make it.

He stands me embodiment of everybody and everything that I exposed , experienced and can be related. He was with me , even before I realize I am with him.

His every exhale of breath is the inhale to my life. And it just made me to get connected with him and everything that I call life or death.

i am just connected with the mud where he walked in the planet. I am just filled with the air that he breathes . I am just connected with the water he interacted. I am just carrying the fire he initiated. I am just living in the vast space of sky , who he is.

I can’t express my gratitude to him. I don’t want feel separated from him by expressing gratitude . But still if one does not have benevolence for what he /she has in this moment , his/her life will not profound to its totality, wholeness. So I am just using this moment of opportunity to express myself.

I am nowhere near to him for what he is. But still I just want to carry a miniscule of what he is. Only he made it possible for me. Only he made it to realize the present. Only he and he everywhere.

But he is reflected and manifested in you. Because I always refers him , as you , to him. So in that way its you and you only in my life.

Now the moment is here. You as you exists. I with you exists. So we create.

We create…

To express our gratitude by sharing what we have.

That’s my offering to you , the people who lived in this moment , in the year 16th and 17th june 2013. I may not know any detail about you. Here and there , Just know a miniscule of informations about you . though it can’t express anything about you , still I always relate only with that. That’s my limitation.

The sound of mandagini still reverberating my ears. The chillness of it can be felt by skin. The eyes are just stuck with 70 ft height and more than 200 ft water on both sides of the temple. It is not even the water. Just a brown and black wall. The vision has struck with  what it exposed.

The fear of losing occupied every cell. The silence of space filled in me. Emptiness in me reverberate his sacred name. the moment has everything . but its just nothing. The everything is just what I can related. Its just a miniscule of that nothing. that’s all.

The miniscule of what I can relate makes me feel to be whole by itself. If so , how the wholeness just by it. That’s what named as “sadhguru”

Note : my expose of disaster management , post flood situations in the valley and my visit on 15th oct 2013 to Kedarnath , after I have been been rescued from Kedarnath on 18th june 2013, all joined hands together lit the fire to work for to create. In the name of  project “save kedar” I just presented the exact status as article.

On this desire , dropped mails and letters to few , whom I thought they can take it up or lead me. Though learned to live joyfully and with gratitude ,still had pain of loss in deep.

These things made me to reach chief minister of the state , for the first time in my life , who is having such role of authority in decision making and implementation. By the blessing of you and many wonderful beings , I have got his support to volunteer myself on few aspects.

Above all he also ordered the district administration to find out all the solutions and suggestions that I have and report to him. In this process the presence of Pujjya swamiji chidanandha maharaj has helped lot to me also trained me lot , without speaking much.

Now on the request of superidentent of police (SP) of rudraprayag , exactly after one year of the flood moment day , yesterday I submitted the copy of power point presentation , which I would like to present for chief minister, for the improvement of my people and state, for the safety of pilgrims , development of state, and new kedarpuri

I know my solutions are not 100 % full proof or complete by itself. It may not fit into basics at various levels. But the working process for it , given me lot. When every one talks about problem, it made me to talk about the solution.

When everybody has lot of complaints , when I have every possibility to complain , it made me to see beyond that. It made me to erase the complaint  by finding the solution to it.

Trusting that your presence and absence will create , what we want create….
Do you know what we create…

I know every one who joins with me , in that , will talk about somany things that they want to create. Already a handful of people , willing to stand up to represent this. Now I am not single any more.

By this I given the three that he asked long ago. They are not perfect human beings. They may not have skills. But they are wonderful contribution to the world , in the name of aspiration and desire, that they want to work for.
Its time we create … the people

And it has all room for all possibilities to create . that’s the worth. And it may produce people who knows that their mission is never complete one . always they failed in their mission but their passion to work for , is always complete one. That’s the beauty of we create.

Would you also like to join to work together with me

Then just drop a mail to me.

Let’s explore the possibilities.

Wednesday, 11 June 2014

the moment with a dream

What can I call it , either Devotion or Deception ?

The moment is very tiny time . even it has not last till we utter the word moment. But it has million things in it. It has everything that’s possible to fit into it. infact nothing is impossible to fit into it. Sometimes its impact lasts for many moments in the journey of time.

Yesterday one such moment  I encountered. For a change , for evening walk I and my friend just went out in haridwar. On the way , there is a father and daughter was standing in the road , in front of a sweet shop, where just in front a extension of shop selling badam milk.

They are just few feets away from the shop. The father is just doing traditional namaskar to everyone who comes out of the shop by saying some thing like hari ohm, ohm namo narayan etc etc . I could not stand and watched him , what he does. But I can get it from his gesture.

I just watched him when my friend goes to near by shop to purchase something. My friend is on his way to his town. He just accompanied me  , just to be with me for some time.

The girl child is around 12 to 13 age. Both of them may be come for their pilgrimage . may be the father wants her daughter also a glimpse of yatra experience. Don’t know whether her mother also accompanied or not . I could not find any other women in near by area.

The man’s luggage clearly told that he is in yatra. Simple luggage. Both of them neat and clean too. But the father did not look like begger too. Just may be he exercise as part of his yatra ritual or may be he run out of money which made him to stand like that with expectation for divine blessings.

No one is looking at them. I know both of them are so hungry. But my thought is upon the girl. What she will do in the road , especially in nights. What is the protection for her? Will her father protect her ? how far a father can protect and support her , especially when she in the edge of her needs are very subtle ? will her father give her good education?

What is such kind of devotion ? in which scripture it is been told that a family man , giving good education and better future to your child and family is less than pilgrimage? I have seen in my family , my mother told many times , that she won’t allow others to take on travels especially when she is in the age of transformation. How her mother and relatives allowed her that too with her father , like this , to a stage to stand in road for something to eat.

Why they have to stand like this in night just for their food? Is this the religious books saying? Will the world and people treat the girl child who is standing in the road , with same devotion? Like this many thoughts keep going within me.

In the time of waiting for my friend, who is still in his purchase I went to the shop , to enquire how much it costs for the milk? The owner told one glass of milk is Rs. 25

I told him , will it be possible to give them each one glass of milk , and I will ask my friend to give money. May be he would have been noticed them long ago. He agreed and instructed the staff to give two glass milk.

By the time I came back , my friend started searching me. He enquired where I went ? I told about what I saw. He was happy to share my pain and blessed me with payment to the shop owner to fulfill my commitment.

I could witness the girl and her father walking with glass of milk . there is not a single communication happened between us. But they know its me I ordered their milk. They may think whichever way as if god came to fulfill their need or whatever.

But I know I am very ordinary being. Its really blessing I had a friend who I met just few days before. It time we need to go our destinations.

I moved to next moment with the residue of that moment. Who will take care of her education? Who will take care of her , if her father takes her like this , that too in the edge of her transforming age? Who will protect her from evil elements ?

Whose fault it is , who has not created any system so that every boy or girl can get their education and protection in their development stage.
Night spreads its carpet. But the questions remains.

The mind is fully about the girl . somewhere I feel I am handicapped. i just got satisfied with what i can give her at that moment. no other way for me.

I want to see a day , before my death, all my childrens has to get free and good education. Especially the girl children has to get additional protection. The future mothers will deliver right people to the world.

Every city should have a group of people , whose heart can beat for others. Who can create free education and protection for girls.

We create….

my heart beats with pain , my face smiles with love and he is living with me

my yatra continues……

Tuesday, 10 June 2014

kedarnath - in sadhguru words

Sadhguru: Kedarnath is a tremendous space. The utterance of the sound “Shiva” attains a completely new dimension and significance in Kedar. It is a space which has been specially prepared for this particular sound. When we utter the word “Shiva,” it is the freedom of the uncreated, the liberation of one who is not created. It is not right to say this, but it is almost like on this planet, the sound “Shiva” emanates from this place. For thousands of years, people have experienced that space as a reverberation of that sound.
When we say “Shiva,” it is not about creating one more idol or god that we can ask for more prosperity or better things in life. The word “Shiva” means “that which is not.” Today, modern science is proving to us that everything comes from nothing and goes back to nothing. The basis of existence and the fundamental quality of the cosmos is vast nothingness. The galaxies are just a small happening – a sprinkling. The rest is all vast empty space, which is referred to as Shiva.
A heady mixture of energies
Kedarnath is a very heady mixture of energies. This is a place that has witnessed thousands of yogis and mystics of every kind. When I say every kind, you cannot imagine those kinds. These are people who made no attempt to teach anything to anyone. Their way of making an offering to the world was by leaving their energies, their path, their work – everything – in a certain way in these spaces.
Adi Shankaracharya was last seen at Kedarnath, before he set off into the mountains. This wall with a hand and staff marks the spot.
When you think of someone on the spiritual path, you would probably think of them within a certain kind of framework in terms of a certain kind of behavior, dress or speech. But this is not a land of just that kind of spiritual person. The kind that fits into your ways of understanding has been here. But there have been many more who are utterly wild, whom you can never recognize as spiritual. But these are people who have touched the very peaks of existence. When we say “a yogi,” we do not mean someone of a certain behavior or morality. A yogi is perfectly in tune with life. So tuned in that he can dismantle life and put it back together again. The fundamental life that is you, if you can dismantle that completely and put it back, only then you are a yogi. There have been many such incredible human beings.
For a person who is seeking some kind of spiritual uplift, Kedar is a boon whose proportions you cannot imagine. That’s how it is, if one is open to this. It is very difficult to explain what it means. After all, it’s just a mountain, an outcrop of rock. But what makes an enormous difference is what has done to the space by the type of people who lived here for thousands of years. This is the place where so many yogis shed their bodies. It is something you must experience. After being born in India, before you are too old and no good for anything, you must make it once to the Himalayas.
The Hump of the Bull
There is a legend that after the Kurukshetra war, the Pandavas were very affected because they had killed their own kinsmen – their own brothers and relatives. This was called Gothravadha. They felt guilty and soiled by this act and were looking for a way to absolve themselves of it. So they went looking for Shiva.
Shiva did not want to give them the pleasure of suddenly becoming free from this horrible act, so he converted himself into the form of a bull and tried to escape. But they espied him and followed him to try and catch him. Shiva went into the ground and when he came up, different parts of the body came up in different places. The forehead is Pashupathinath in Nepal, considered as the most significant. The hump of the bull is Kedarnath, the two forelegs are Tunganath, which is on the way to Kedar. The navel appeared in a place in the Indian part of the Himalaya called Madhya-Maheshwar which is a very powerful Manipuraka linga, and the matted locks of Shiva appeared in what is called Kalpnath. Like this, different parts of the body appeared in different places.
The sacred Nandi at Kedarnath temple
This description of body parts has something to do with the seven chakras. These temples were established as a human body. It was a great experiment – trying to create a huge body with a tantric possibility. One such body happened in the direction of the Indian Himalayas. Another such body flowed towards the western direction where they tried to convert Nepal itself into a body.
Kantisarovar – Lake of Grace
The legend goes that Shiva and Parvati lived on the banks of Kantisarovar, and in Kedar, there lived many yogis whom they would visit. Kantisarovar is the lake that burst out and came to Kedar during the 2013 floods. Today, it is being called Gandhi Sarovar. It is actually Kantisarovar. Kanti means grace, sarovar means a lake. It is a lake of grace. In the yogic culture, Shiva is not seen as a God. He was a being who walked this land and is the very source of the yogic traditions. He is the Adiyogi or the first yogi, and also the Adi Guru, the first Guru. This first transmission of yogic sciences happened on the banks of Kantisarovar, where Adiyogi began a systematic exposition of this inner technology to his first seven disciples, celebrated today as the Sapta Rishis.
Many years ago, I used to travel alone for a month or two every year in the Himalayas. At that time I just went by myself, by local bus. Generally I sat on top of the bus and went because I didn’t want to miss the mountains. These were crazy buses! They started at 4 or 4:30 in the morning from Haridwar and went straight to either Gaurikund or Badrinath. They didn’t stop anywhere except to pick up and drop people – not even for food. They used to be called Bhook Hartal buses, which means “hunger strike” buses. The driver would have his rolled up chapatti which he eats as he is driving while you sit there wondering about lunch!
When I got to Kedar after a long trek from Gaurikund, I heard about Kantisarovar, so one afternoon, I set forth around 2 or 2:30 p.m. and got there in little more than an hour’s time. There was the lake and snow-capped mountains around it. In terms of nature, it is fantastic – this huge lake of absolutely still water, no vegetation and all the snow-covered peaks reflecting in the totally still water. It was an incredible place.
Sadhguru at Kantisarovar, where the first transmission of yogic sciences took place.
I just sat there, and the serenity, silence and purity penetrated my consciousness. The climb, the altitude and the desolate beauty of that place left me breathless. I sat in that stillness on a small rock with my eyes open, imbibing every form around me. The surroundings gradually lost their form and only nada – sound – existed. The mountain, the lake and the whole surroundings, including my body, did not exist in their usual form. Everything was just sound. Within me a song arose: “Nada Brahma Vishwaswaroopa.”
Nada Brahma Vishwaswaroopa
Nada Hi Sakala Jeevaroopa
Nada Hi Karma Nada Hi Dharma
Nada Hi Bandhana Nada Hi Mukti
Nada Hi Shankara Nada Hi Shakti
Nadam Nadam Sarvam Nadam
Nadam Nadam Nadam Nadam
I am somebody who always avoided learning the Sanskrit language. Though I like the language very much and I know the depth of the language, I avoided learning it because the moment you learn Sanskrit, you will invariably end up reading the scriptures. My own vision has never failed me in anything even for one moment, so I did not want to clutter myself with scriptures and all these traditions. So I avoided Sanskrit.
While I was sitting there, my mouth was definitely closed and my eyes open, and I heard this song in a big way, in my voice. It was my voice singing, and it was a Sanskrit song. I heard it clearly, loudly. So loud, it was like the whole mountain was singing. In my experience, everything had turned into sound. That is when I perceived this song. I didn’t make it up, I didn’t write it – it just descended upon me. The whole song flowed out in Sanskrit. The experience was overpowering.
Slowly, after some time, everything fell back into its earlier form. The fall of my consciousness – the fall from nada to rupa – filled my eyes with tears.
Nada Brahma simply means experiencing the world as a sound, not as a form. Modern science also says that every sound has a form attached to it, and every form has a sound attached to it. This is a scientific reality. And today we also know that there is no such thing as matter anymore as far as science is concerned. Where there is a vibration, there is bound to be a sound. So in yoga, we say the whole of existence is sound.
If you just give yourself to that song, there is a kind of power to it. It has a power to dissolve a person, if you really throw yourself into it.
note : isha sacred walks ( conducting himalyan dhyan yatra 

வார்த்தைகள் அதன் பிரயோகங்கள்

வார்த்தைகள் வெற்று வார்த்தைகள்தான் சப்தங்கள்தான். ஆனால் உணர்வுகள் கலந்து வெளிவரும் போது அதன் தொனி வெவ்வேறு அர்த்தத்தை கேட்பவருக்கு புரிய வைக்கிறது.

மேலும் அதில் கெட்ட வார்த்தைகள் அல்லது நல்ல வார்த்தைகள் என்றெல்லாம் எதுவுமில்லை, அதை நாம்தான் நமது சமுக மற்றும் தனி மனித கோட்பாடுகளால் கெட்டது நல்லது என்று பகுத்து விடுகிறோம், நினைவு தெரிந்த நாளில் இருந்து நான் இது போன்ற வார்த்தைகளை பயன்படுத்தியது இல்லை. ஆனால் கோபத்தாலும் , இயலாமையினாலும் பிறரை அசிங்கப்படுத்துவதாக நினைத்துக் கொண்டு தங்களை சிறுமைபடுத்திக் கொள்ளும் அழகான மனிதர்களின் மத்தியில் வாழ்ந்து இருக்கிறேன்.

கவனிக்கவும். அழகான மனிதர்கள் என்று குறிப்பிடுகிறேன். ஆம் அவர்கள் அழகானவர்கள்தான் . ஆனால் இயற்கையை. இயல்பான விஷயங்களை எதிர்கொள்ள முடியாத கோழைகள். அதனாலேயே அவர்களுக்கு அதீத தீவிரம் தேவைப்படுகிறது. அதை அவர்களது கோபத்திற்கான காரணம் . வெறுப்பிற்கான மனிதர் தந்து விடுகிறார். 

ஆண் பெண் உறவு என்பதே உடல் சார்ந்தே எண்ணத் தோன்றுகிறது. உண்மையில் நம்மில் பெரும்பாலனவர்களால் உடல் தாண்டி எதையும் சிந்தனை செய்ய முடிவதில்லை. 

ஆனால் உடல் குறித்து கவனமில்லை என்று பசப்புகிறோம். ஒழுக்கத்திற்கு வரையரை படுத்திவிடுகிறோம். அந்த வரையரைக்குள் வராததை அல்லது அதற்கு அப்பாற்பட்டதை எல்லாம் ஒழுக்கமில்லாததாக , தவறானதாக , குற்றமானதாக கருதுகிறோம்,

அடித்தள மக்களிடையே இப்படி போராட்டம் இருப்பதில்லை. அடிக்கடி பிரயோகம் அல்லது அதை வெளிப்படுத்த தயக்கமின்மை , அவர்களுக்கு கூச்சத்தை போக்கிவிடுகிறது. குற்ற உணர்வை முற்றிலுமாக நீக்கி விடுகிறது,

அதே போன்று மேல்தள மக்களிடையே இதே விஷயங்கள் இயல்பாகவும் நாகரீகமாகவும் எடுத்துக் கொள்ளப்படுகிறது (குறைந்த பட்சம் அந்தரங்கம் என்கிற போர்வைக்குள் சென்றுவிடுகிறது) ஆனால் அவர்களுக்கும் கூட தங்களது குற்ற உணர்வை கடந்து செல்ல வேறு பல வஸ்துக்கள் தேவைப்படுகின்றன. இதர பெரும்பாலானவர்கள் போராடுவதை அறியாமலே போராடுகிறார்கள். பேசக் கூட தயங்குகிறார்கள். 

இன்னமும் கொஞ்சம் ஆழமாக பாருங்கள். இப்படி கெட்ட வார்த்தைகளை பேசுவதன் மூலம் அவர்களை அவமானப்படுத்துவதாக நினைக்கிறோம். ஆனால் நம்மை நாமே அவமானப் படுத்திக் கொள்கிறோம், 

உண்மையில் கெட்ட வார்த்தைகள் என்று எவர் அடையாளப் படுத்தினர். நமது கோபத்திற்கும் இயலாமைக்கும் வடிகாலாக போகும் இந்த உச்சரிப்புக்கள் உண்மையில் வெற்று வார்த்தைகள்தான். இப்படி பல சொற்களை நாம் பயன்படுத்தவே தயங்கும் நிலையில் வாழ்கிறோம். 

உதாரணமாக கழிப்பறை என்கிற சொல்லை பயன்படுத்த பலரிடம் தயக்கம் இருக்கும். இங்கிலாந்தில் லெக் என்கிற சொல்லை பயன்படுத்தவே தயக்கம் இருக்குமாம். லெக் என்று சொன்னாலே அதுவே ஏதோ தவறு செய்துவிட்டதாக உணர்வார்களாம். இப்படி ஒருவர் சொல்ல கேள்விப்பட்டுள்ளேன்.

எனக்கும் கூட இவ்வகை தயக்கங்கள் இருந்திருக்கின்றன. சிறுவயதில் யார் வீட்டிற்காவது செல்ல நேரிட்டால் கழிப்பறை எங்கிருக்கிறது என்று கேட்க பலமணி நேரம் போராட்டம் இருக்கும். இன்றும் நமது சமுகத்தில் மாதவிடாய் என்கிற சொல்லை சொல்வதே , அல்லது அது குறித்த விழிப்புணர்வை ஏற்படுத்த பேசினாலே ,  ஏதோ பாவம் செய்தவனை போன்ற பார்க்கிற பாவனையை சமுகம் பெற்றுள்ளது. அது இயல்பான ஒரு அம்சம் , வாழ்வின் அடிப்படையான அம்சம் என்று எளிமையாக பேசமுடிவதில்லை.

இதையெல்லாம் பேசலாமோ என்கிற எண்ணத்துடனேயே பேச வைக்கிறது. அல்லது இதை மட்டுமல்ல இதை கடந்து எதை வேண்டுமானாலும் பேசலாம் என்று போலித்தனமான சிந்தனையை தந்து விடுகிறது. வார்த்தைகளின் வலிமையை வரையறையை உணர விழிப்புணர்வை பெற வேண்டியுள்ளது, 

ஆனாலும் தற்போதெல்லாம் சினிமாக்களிலும் சரி அல்லது பேஸ்புக் போன்று சமுக தளங்களிலும் இப்படி பயன்படுத்த நேரிடும் போது வேறு குறியீடுகளையும் இல்லது இடைவெளிகளாலும் நிரப்புகிறார்கள். இதனாலேயே அவ்வார்த்தைகளுக்கு கூடுதல் கவனத்தை பெற்றுத் தர ஆரம்பித்து விடுகிறோம். 

கெட்ட வார்த்தையில் திட்ட வேண்டும் என்று எழுதினாலே போதுமானது. இல்லையா? புரிந்து கொள்ள முடிந்தவர்கள் நிச்சயம் புரிந்து கொள்வார்கள். தங்களை திருத்திக் கொள்வார்கள் கூட. கற்றுக் கொள்ள ஆர்வமில்லாதவர்கள் அதே கெட்ட வார்த்தைகளினால் திட்டினால் கூட புரிந்து கொள்ள மாட்டார்கள்.  

இத்தகைய இடைவெளிகளாலும் அல்லது மற்ற குறியீடுகளாலும் நிரப்புவதை விட, உண்மையில் அப்படியே பயன்படுத்தினால் கூட அது அவ்வளவு முக்கியத்துவத்தை பெறாது. அதைவிட சிறந்த உபாயம் இத்தகைய வார்த்தைகளை நம்முள் வடிவம் பெற அனுமதிப்பதைக் காட்டிலும் , மாற்று வார்த்தைகளை உருவாக்கிக் கொள்வது சாலச் சிறந்த ஒன்று.

எனெனில் ஏற்கனவே நமது எண்ணத்திலும் உணர்விலும் , நமக்குள்  வடிவம் பெற்று விட்ட கோபமோ அல்லது வெறுப்போ அல்லது வேறு ஒரு உணர்வோதான் , நமது வார்த்தைகளாகவும் வடிவம் பெறுகின்றது, மேலும் ஒன்று வார்த்தைகளாக வெளிப்படும் போது படிப்பவருக்குள்ளும் அது இயல்பாகவே வடிவம் பெற்றுவிடும். இது எளிமையான விஞ்ஞானம். அதுவும் இப்படி வேறு குறியீடுகளாலும் இடைவெளிகளாலும் நிரப்பப் படும் போது அது படிப்பவரின் கவனத்தை பெற தவறுவதே இல்லை.

இது நமக்குள் ஏதோ செய்யக் கூடாததை செய்த மாதிரிசொல்லக் கூடாததை சொன்ன மாதிரி ஒரு  குற்ற உணர்வையும் உணர்வை உருவாக்கு மனவருத்ததில் ஆழ்த்துகிறது, உண்மையில் அந்த பிரயோகித்த அந்த வார்த்தையால் பாதிப்படைந்தவரை காட்டிலும் நம்மை அதிகம் பாதிப்படைய வைக்கிறது.

படிப்பவருக்கு வார்த்தை என்ன தெரியாமலோ அல்லது புரியாமலோ போய்விடுமான என்ன ? எதற்கு இப்படி ஒரு சில வார்த்தைகளுடன் போராட்டம்.  இப்படி நமக்குள்ளேயே சில செயல்களை , சில விஷயங்களை அசிங்கமென்றும் தவறென்றும் வரைபடுத்தி இயற்கையின் இயல்பான விஷயங்களோடு போராடுகிறோம். இது மிக ஆழமான போராட்டம்.

இது பிறரோடு நடக்கும் போது கவனிக்க முடிகிறது, ஆனால் நமக்குள்ளேயே மிக ஆழமாக நடப்பதை உணர முடியாமல் போய்விடுகிறது, இயற்கையில் இருக்கும் இயற்கையான விஷயங்களோடும் இயல்புகளோடும் இனம் புரியாது போராடுகிறோம்.

நமக்குள்ளேயே நல்லது கெட்டது என்று பகுத்து வைத்து போராடுகிறோம். இது அடுத்தவரிடம் எதிர்கொள்ளும் போராட்டமோ அல்லது அடுத்தவரை ஏற்றுக் கொள்ள முடியாமல் தடுமாறும் நொடிகளோ அல்ல. நம்முடனே நாம் போராடுகிறோம். அதற்கு நாமே விளக்கங்கள் கூறிக் கொள்கிறோம். நியாயப்படுத்திக் கொள்கிறோம்,

காரணங்கள் உண்மையானவைதான். ஏற்றுக் கொள்ள கூடியவைதான். ஆனால் அக்காரணங்கள் நமக்கு விடை பெற்றுத் தருவதில்லை. கோபங்கள் தீர்வாகிவிடுவதில்லை , இயலாமையின் வெளிப்பாடாகவே இருக்கிறது, மாறாக மேலும் வன்மம் கொள்ளச் செய்கிறது, எதிர்வினை ஆற்றச் செய்கிறது,

இதை மிகச் சிலரே விழிப்புணர்வுடன் எதிர்கொள்கிறார்கள், எனக்கு தெரிந்த எனது அற்புதமான நண்பர் ஒருவர் தனக்கு கோபம் வரும் போதும் , வெறுப்பு வரும் போதும் அடுத்தவரை மூநா என்று கூறிவிடுவார். மூநா என்பது முட்டாளே என்பதன் சுருக்கம். அடுத்தவரை தாங்கள் எப்படி முட்டாள் என்று சொல்ல முடியும் என்று கேட்டதற்கு அழகான விளக்கம் தந்தார்.

அடுத்தவருக்கு தனது கோபமும் வருத்தமும் புரிந்துவிடும். அதே சமயம் முட்டாளே என்று நானே என்னை அழைத்துக் கொள்வது போல எனக்கு தோன்றும். என்னை வளர்த்துக் கொள்ளாமல் , என்னை கோபம் கொள்ளமால் இருக்க வைக்க முடியாமல் , என்னை நான் அமைதியாக வைத்திருக்க முடியாத நான் அல்லவா முதலில் முட்டாள். 

அதே போல் எனது கோபத்தாலும் அதிகாரத்தாலும் வெறுப்பினாலும் பிறரை மாற்றிவிட முடியும் என்று நினைக்கும் நான் அல்லவா முதல் முட்டாள். 

இதன் மூலம் எப்போதெல்லாம் நான் இந்த எல்லையை உணர்கிறேனோ அப்போதெல்லாம் என்னை இன்னமும் வளர்த்துக் கொள்ள வேண்டும் என்பதை நினைவு படுத்திக் கொள்ள வேண்டி இந்த வார்த்தையை நான் பயன்படுத்துகிறேன் என்று கூறினார், அல்லது எப்போதெல்லாம் நான் இந்த வார்த்தையை பயன்படுத்தினேனோ அந்த ஷணங்களை , நிகழ்வை மீண்டும் சீர் தூக்கி பார்த்து என்னை திருத்திக் கொள்ள பயன்படுத்திக் கொள்கிறேன் என்றார்,

அது முதல் நானும் அவரைப் போலவே அந்த வார்த்தையை அவ்வப்போது பயன்படுத்திக் கொள்ள ஆரம்பித்தேன். அதன் பின் எல்லாம் அவரைப் போலவே எனது வாழ்க்கையிலும் தேவைப்படும் இடங்களில் பிறரை குறிப்பிட  இந்த மூநா அதிகமான இடத்தை பிடித்துக் கொண்டது. 

கடந்த சில வருடங்களாக இவ்வார்த்தையின்பயன்பாடும் மிக மிக குறைந்து விட்டதை எனக்குள் கவனிக்க முடிகிறது, ஏதோ ஒரு சில ஷணங்களைத் தவிர பெரும்பாலும் இல்லாமலே போய்விட்டது என்று கூட சொல்ல முடியும்  அது கூட கோபத்தினாலோ அல்லது வெறுப்பினாலோ பிரயோகிக்க தேவையின்றி, அல்லது என் இயலாமையின் வெளிப்பாடாக இன்றி அமைந்திருப்பது வரப்பிரசாதமே.

ஆனால் வேறுவிதமான தொனியில் இதே வார்த்தையை பயன்படுத்த ஆரம்பித்தேன். இதே மூநா இப்பொதெல்லாம் என்னைச் சுற்றியுள்ள அன்பான மனிதர்களின் அறியாமையை முட்டாள்தனத்தை சுட்டிக் காட்ட மட்டுமே பயன்படுத்துகிறது., அவர்களின் மேல் எனக்கிருக்கும் அன்பையும் அக்கறையையும் வெளிப்படுத்துவிதமாகவே மலர்ந்து பரிமளிக்கிறது, என்ன அழகான மாற்றம் , எனக்குள் மலர்கிறது,

அந்த வார்த்தையை பரிசளித்த எனது நண்பருக்கு நன்றி, 

ஆனால் அதற்கு முன்னால் நான் பயன்படுத்தி வந்த எனது வார்த்தை வேறு , அது என்ன தெரியுமா? புண்ணாக்கு J அது கூட மனிதர்களை குறிப்பிட நான் பயன்படுத்தியதில்லை

ஆனால் ஆங்கிலத்தில் நான்சென்ஸ் என்று சொல்லவோ அல்லது தமிழில் குப்பை என்று சொல்லுவதை விட புண்ணாக்கு என்று சொல்வது சரியாக இருந்ததாக எனக்கு உணர்வு

அதற்கு காரணம் அந்த குப்பையில் இருந்தும் மின்சாரம் தயாரிக்கவும் உரம் தயாரிக்கவும் சிலர் கற்றுக் கொண்டு விட்டதை அறிந்து கொண்டதால்தான்

இப்போதெல்லாம் இந்த "புண்ணாக்கும்" எனக்கு உணவாவதில்லை. அது மாடுகளுக்கு சென்று விட்டது. அவைகளும் ஆரோக்கியமாக இருக்கின்றன. நானும் ஆனந்தமாக இருக்கிறேன்

(பேஸ்புக்கில் ஹன்ஸாவின் பதிவை படித்த போது தோன்றிய வார்த்தைகள்)

Monday, 9 June 2014

Blessed with their presence - days in parmarth

For the past one month I am little busy and bit disappointed too. It started with my birthday on may 1st. the only disappointment is my plan of visit to Kedarnath not happened as I expected. I will write these things latter. Because now I need to share about wonderful people that I met.

Since oct 26th  2013, my first visit to parmarth nikethan rishikesh , the connection still goes on. Even that first visit is given by Kedarnath. The inner push , to present at some point or with some one , so that atleast something can be taken forward from the life that stuck at 16 and 17th june flood.

The same made me to create the “SAVE KEDAR” document (posted in blog too) which I presented to Pujjya swami chidanandha maharaj , the head of parmarth niketan. That acknowledged by his blessings taken me to the event where then chief minister shri vijay baghuguna’s and former BJP CM both attended in the same ashram at rishikesh in jan 2014.

Last week suddenly I got a msg from nandhini of project hope office that swamiji wants to meet me. Also she mentioned about a katha program that is organized by parmarth which will happen from 15th to 22nd june 2014. Here at every place few people organized this bhagavath katha program for the first anniversary of last year flood victims.

This time as soon as I landed in rishikesh , one sanyasi , who is from kerala , now on yatra met me in the road just in few minutes. Its wonderful time I spent with him , by sharing few things about grace of guru for some time. By the time I reach parmarth its almost night 8 pm. The ganga arathi was going on. So I did not disturbed nandhini.

I neither visited reception because of I don’t know the answer for the questions such as how long I need to stay, what purpose of meeting etc etc. when I kept luggage’s in reception the one who was there told me directly go to swamiji’s dharshan .

For me , a small reluctant because of continous travel for 10 hrs. but still I obeyed him. It is exactly coincindence that swamiji also came back from arathi by the time I reach the gate. After the blessing and customery words he asked me to come in.

Swamiji is very fast in communication. for the whole day lot of people waiting for his dharshan , even if it is just for 2 min. for many many it is such unique and one time life experience to meet somebody like this , because of coming from rural and far away india.

that too when people like sadhguru is so simple and able to acccesable by common man , they feel blessed beyond life and death. i remember how sadhguru gives importance of that moment , in volunteers meets, especially in samyama. 

here in a place like rishikesh , where daily tourist comes in huge numbers for all 365 days , especially people like swamiji , can touch the people and their life just by sitting in one place. i too have experienced few of such wonderful people. here in parmarth nikethan , evening ganga arathi is very very famous. it attract lot of crowd and almost all celebrities and prominent people.

swami utilising this opportunity to spread awareness about cleaning the ganga and planting trees. daily atleast handfull of dignitries getting some plant in presence of public by committing to nurture it to grow. it is very overwhelming experience for many. And simple people from rural india , especially when they undertake a sankalpa like this for tree plantation or not to pollute ganga , during their life time theerth yatra , it will be followed beyond generations of that family. for sure it has impact in people's life. thats the best part of the tools of devotion.

so all these demands made him to handle minimum a dozen of people all the time. if he can give just 1 min per person even that is not enough to fulfill the daily demand. in between he has to manage celebrities, requests, projects, various proposals etc etc. And above all the people who comes always talks about general ways. nothing in particular with solutions. if u ask them ok fine what u can do for this , many of them will become silent. 

every one wants something has to do for nation and society only by others. many not willing to come forward with committment , or to take up something. so he can't give more than 2 minute to a person unless otherwise the person is sharp, talking result oriented, willing to take some responsibility and work to make it happen.

but still For a person who worked with sadhguru....... , before i go into this let me tell you one thing , it is not right to compare anyone with anyone. every one is unique in their own way. every one is reached their height and people in their own way.

i am seeing them as they are. here i want to compare myself to the demands of working with two different personalities in the same platform. in small level it happened for me and for every one in isha too, when they work with different swami's and maa's. though each one works for same purpose and in same system , the way of working and way of approach will be different from each other.

so in this context it is quite opposite situation for me in terms of demand. it will be is really challenge. needs lot of patience and aware for not to judge or compare any of the thing. Not just for me but anyone it is same. Because it is two total contra ways of working. 

When I was sitting in sathsang , somehow his way of work reminded the character of the movie , nanbargal (tamil version of 3 idiots) sathyaraj, teaching two different subjects by two hands at the same time. the multi task handling character it will emphasise. to seek complete attention of such one is wonderful experience.

Because he handles the works in such fast , that in such a way not even single moment getting waste. Also I able to observe and learn many things . it was great experience to be work with such people. The other person who amazed me is DR Rachna.

I met her in jan 2014 for the first time. She also learned the shambavi maha mudra. Her two childrens also filled with joy and lived in the moment. She is Delhi university professor and her husband is an IAS cadre.
me with her son Aarsh , Dr  Rachna (blue saree) and her daughter shreyanshi is back to us - in ganga arathi at parmarth niketan
Swamiji just told,  I need to talk about kedar, we will meet tomorrow morning . 

But the communication gap is existed everywhere. it is because the volunteers not able to run with time and his fast due to many things has to be done in same time. they also have to prepare things for such meetings , requirements of guests , etc etc apart from their department works. Almost after starting the meeting with few people , nandhini has sent the msg for me , in searching and calling for the meeting.

On the other hand I expected this kind and always on the toe since the morning. Last time itself I observed how each one of them working. The swamiji’s speed is uncomparable but for others I noticed as by running in that speed many things they missing. They could not able to catch the moment.

By the time I reached swamiji’s kutir , almost a dozen people going thru the process which includes prominent people like shri. Unniyal ji from uttarakhand planning commission and Dr rachna , the only known face to me.

After the meeting , shri unniyal ji has presented a PPT , a solution to uttarakhand problem of roads and land slides. His wonderful presentation discussed lot about creating tunnel based transport , which reduces the distance between all the prominent places significantly.

It is quite interesting subject and if it is presented properly and taken by people in administration , beyond the politics , definitely such innovative ideas will give better solutions for common people and pilgrims. There are few things have to be worked out in that aspect. By the time it got end it become 2 pm.

So my meeting was postponed to night after arathi. Based on my experience with pujjya swamiji and observation of his way of doing things I worked out myself about new kedarpuri , thru a power point presentation. Though he has not said anything like that , I thought I must do this homework , only then I can encounter the moment incase if anything he asks.

If it is for sadhguru , I could have submit it thru the channel and I will get the response depending upon what is presented. Mostly I get blessings note and necessary instructions will go to relevant department or people , who has to handle those aspect and we can relay on the result unless and otherwise if practical issues pops up .

Generally all the second level application we may not require to go to him. Because it is system based approach. Only for policy or for something innovative mechanism and cost factor we need to reach higher hierarchy. But here this system is function based on person based. may be i went for the project related , i think the department functions like that.

Every single thing going thru and depending on just one person , who is pujjya swamiji himself. There is no second line people so that we can work out all the thing or we can do follow up the progress of the project. swamini adityanandha takes care of documentation aspects. but both she and nandhini are very busy in such level , that they could not able to remember what they got , where they storing. i don't know whether their working style is like that or system is like that. one thing is very clear to me , for swamiji's speed and demand of expectations from the public , the supply is not sufficient.

And daily when u initiate so many things , if ur second line people not walked with same speed , everything will folded back there itself. For the push you have approach the top again.

By observing all this , I don’t want to take any second chance to take up the matters . I must thank and gratitude my isha people and isha life to give me such diversify and depth experience in handling of things.  Because in isha , every one has their unique style of working so you have to adapt to each individual style of approach in short time , else you will end up in complaints. At the same time the system plays its role for back up and follow up , whenever individual limitations pops up.

In the night after arathi, suddenly swamiji turned up ,and told, “ yes now , tell “ . I wondered what to tell about new kedarpuri , that too straight away I am from arathi. Suddenly I landed in moment and told , nothing to tell swami , I prepared a PPT which I will present.

Immediately swamiji’s response was , I have seen the pictures last time itself, what is there to see again?

No swamiji , this is different , this is about points related to creating new kedarpuri .

Do you have any solution for that? Swamiji asked

Yes , I made it as power point presentation. I can bring now .

Ok , I will come to presentation room.

I ran back to my stay room , to bring the details.

Myself , nandhini, swamini adithyanandha and few others on toes in setting up the ppt .

Both nandhini and swamini does not know how to connect the laptop with screen. The person who did in the morning also tried but he could not succeed and left it as it is ,went out. i think he is also trainee in this aspect. the whole team of people not ready for all kinds of demands that swamiji may require at anytime , especially in dharshan time. so for every thing people need to run away to search for something or somebody.

We are failure in our effort of setting up monitor. none of them not know how to set up things to make for the presentation. Swamiji opened the door and as usual he did not waste single minute , oh its not ready ok I see u tomorrow.

I just recalled myself how if it would been isha. its well organised. volunteers will keep all options and needs and requirements . it just need very less time to set up things as soon as msg received. even otherwise if sometimes something not able to fix it Sadhguru would have been wait unless otherwise if we could not fix it and say we could not due to ..... this this reason. generally it wont happen at all.

Similarly every one tried to help each other and do something because we doing it for him only , we are living for him only incase if such emergency arrives at any moment.

I could not be stopped to recollect my memories.

But here I am just an invitee above all I too never did such thing in my life.
We shared some wonderful thoughts and ended the day.

The next day I am more alert that I don’t want to take single chance again so I am on back of them to ensure those things well in advance. Ofcourse with the help of some volunteer we set and ready for him to visit.

Swamini adityanandha has passed msg to swamiji , but left thinking that it is not for her to carry out her activity.

So when swamiji came , he want her presence too to take the notes so that next step is possible. So again he left by giving another 5 minutes.

I become too alert , if I struggle even for one second to present , if it is not impressive , the whole work will loose the possibility of reaching higher administration such as CM and PM .

it is more than my life now. Because as a individual , without any banner or organization I cant take it such heights as of now. But if swamiji is convinced he can take it up to such high desks , which has the possibility to restore the sacred place in best possible way.

I have no prayer or chanting within me. But within me it is like how I present to my beloved guru. Only difference is earlier I take my own time but now time is not in my hands , I have to win the time too.

Generally I am little bit tense especially if I present something to such high level people , other than sadhguru. The only thing is my exposure and little knowledge keep reminding myself.

So I kept my homework going within me as from where I should start how to go.

Atlast the moment came. Dr rachna also was there. Her presence gave lot of boost and coolness to me. It gave me a feeling that I am presenting to her only . i thought she can convince swamiji or she can give pause time to me by asking few questions.

She is very wonderful person filled with lot of exposure and devotion. She was sharing about many things about isha, sadhguru , swami ullasa etc. just before the presentation she spoke about starting of her shambavi practices.
Along with swamiji there is another crew also came . swamiji invited them also.

I kept the screen , set ready go kind. So just started from there.

Started first point of building 3 tier protection wall in the rivers and need of it . swamiji got interest he also joined with me to share his ideas to enrich the vision.

For the next less than 15 mins his focus not shifted anywhere. Very keenly observed and blessed with his inputs.

Now the plan is almost ready , I improved with line sketches of how it should be . by tomorrow it is ready to add in PPT .

Swamiji committed he will take it to governments.

I know it may not happen as it is I told. But for sure the points and facts will be taken into consideration and improved.

Though he wants to have some more discussion (don’t know abt what) I am just waiting for his time and blessing.

In the mean time yesterday , on ganga arathi , first time in my life I got opportunity to pay my prayers and arathi to her. Fortunately the day was blessed by few mahamandaleshwar’s and ganga dasara day (birth day of ganga)

Later in the night , Rachna’s children filled the wonderful moments with their presence and grace. It was wonderful experience to talk with her son. He started writing his thoughts and emotions on ganga.

By the end , rachna herself came with shining light got from shambavi. She took me and introduce many wonderful people who volunteer there.

Ramesh , the person who works in swamiji’s reception , a beautiful encounter keep happening with him everytime , silently and with smile.

Karmaveer touched my heart beyond the language barrier.

Nandhini and swamini adityanandha are unique and wonderful in their own ways.

The day’s of parmarth will continue …..

Because its his blessing and grace.

i am just very ordinary person , have my own limitations and mistakes , yet my days are not far away , the grace of guru leads me and filled with his blessings

The presence of such wonderful people and powerful absence of him is telling only this to me.

at last , today i got his free time for some moments. he is not as i seen in previous days. told few inputs. blessed me by handing over the responsibility to make it happen. he said he will be with me and support every need. so together we can make it happen.

so at last road map to kedarnath , starts unfolds

you too bless me , so we create such sacred thing in our life and world

Will pen it more . till then…….